TAROT JOURNEY

TAROT CONSCIOUSNESS…THE ARCHETYPAL JOURNEY…A MANIFESTATION OF DREAMS, MYTHS AND FANTASIES…THE ARCHETYPES ARE POTENTIAL LIKE A DRY RIVER BED THAT BECOMES ACTIVE ONLY WHEN THE WATERS BEGIN TO FLOW…THE BEHAVIORS ARE ACTIVATED IN ACCORDANCE WITH ARCHETYPE FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS…THE ARCHETYPES ARE IN OUR ‘COLLECTIVE UNCONSCIOUS’ AND CALL FORTH WAYS OF MOVING AND DOING…IT IS A BELIEF IN THE PATTERNS AND RITUALS OF RECURRENCY…FATE AND THE RHYTHMS BEYOND ONE’S CONTROL…INNER ACTIONS OF PSYCHE GENERATION… TRANSFORMATION… LIFE CRISES… GENERATIONAL UPHEAVAL AND CONVULSIVENESS…

THIS STUDY AND REFLECTION IS A PSYCHE’ AWARENESS EFFORT TO DIGEST THE MACRO-MICRO OF MY EXPERIENCE AND WORK THROUGH THE EMOTIONAL COMPLEXITIES OF PERSONAL GROWTH AND HEALING…GROWTH…A PRIVATE REALIZATION…A PERSONAL TRUTH…THEMES OF TRANSFORMATION…THE DEVELOPMENT OF PSYCHIC FACULTIES…

‘INITIATION IS EQUIVALENT TO A BASIC CHANGE IN EXISTENTIAL CONDITION’ -MERCEA ELIADE
THE TAROT CARDS

THE OVERALL PATTERN OF THE TRUMPS DEMONSTRATES A THREE PART STORY DERIVED FROM PLATO’S THEORY OF THE THREE PARTS OF THE SOUL: THE SOUL OF APPETITE, THE SOUL OF WILL, AND THE SOUL OF REASON.

THE TRUMPS OR ‘TRIUMPHS’ ARE THE EMANATIONS OF THE HIERARCHICAL SEQUENCE OF EACH CARD BEING OF MORE SPIRITUAL VALUE THAN ITS PREDECESSOR…IT IS ABOUT THE RELATIONSHIP OF VALUES TO THE TRIPLE SOUL… IN ‘THE REPUBLIC’ PLATO TALKS ABOUT 3 CLASSES OF MEN---LOVERS OF WISDOM, LOVERS OF HONOR AND LOVERS OF GAIN….THE LOVERS OF WISDOM ARE THOSE IN WHICH THE SOUL OF REASON HAS TAKEN CONTROL, THE LOVERS OF HONOR ARE DOMINATED BY THE SOUL OF WILL, AND THE LOVERS OF GAIN ARE DOMINATED BY THE SOUL OF APPETITE.

THE SOUL OF APPETITE BEING LOCATED IN THE ABDOMEN WAS VULNERABLE TO THE EXCESSES OF LUST, GLUTTONY, GREED AND THEREFORE REQUIRED TEMPERANCE IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE BALANCES BEYOND THE EXCESSES…TO REACH BEAUTY, HEALTH AND HARMONY.

THE SOUL OF WILL WHICH WAS LOCATED IN THE HEART WAS THE DESIRE FOR POWER AND PRESTIGE AND POSSIBLY ANGER AND CRUELTY THAT MUST BE PURIFIED THROUGH FORTITUDE, STRENGTH, OR COURAGE…TO BECOME THE DISCIPLINE NECESSARY TO CONQUER FEAR.

THE SOUL OF REASON WAS LOCATED IN THE HEAD AND THROUGH IT ONE LEARNED PRUDENCE AND JUSTICE…

TRUMP CARDS AND STORIES....................................

TRUMP 0…THE FOOL…AIR OR VACUUM OR PUISSANT INNOCENCE…THE EDGE OF THE ABYSS HOLDING THE MALE ELEMENT OF FIRE…THE FEMALE ELEMENT OF WATER…THE SWORD OF AIR…THE DISC OF EARTH…THE LEAP INTO THE UNKNOWN…HE CARRIES A WHITE ROSE SYMBOLIC OF SPIRITUAL DESIRE…THE ‘INNER CHILD’ READY TO DO,DO,DO…ZERO IS THE NUMBER OF PURE POTENTIAL…TO BOLDLY GO WHERE NO MAN HAS GONE BEFORE…TO TAKE A RISK WITH CHILDLIKE OPTIMISM AND INNOCENCE KNOWING THAT UNCERTAIN CONDITIONS, ANXIETY, AND LACK OF CLARITY ARE ALL AROUND…IT IS THE TIME TO START A NEW LIFE CYCLE…ORIGINALITY AND THE BIRTH OF THE NEW…SEXUALITY IN A COMPLEXITY OF YIN/YANG ENERGIES…PRUDENCE AND PERSPECTIVE TEMPERING THE IMPULSES…BALANCING THE TENDENCY TOWARD GAMBLING AND EXCESSES OF INTENSITY… PLAYING WITH FIRE…LOOK BEFORE ONE LEAPS…THE SPIRIT OF ETHER…THE FIRST CURRENT OF POTENTIAL VIBRATION…THE GOD OF SILENCE…USEFULNESS IS ONLY SPIRITUAL NOT IN THE MATERIAL REALM…THE UNMANIFEST…A BAPTISM OF AIR…

THE FOOL IS A NEW SOUL IN THE BEGINNING OF THE SUIT AND BECOMES THE PENULTIMATE WHEN HE COMPLETES THE GO AROUND JOURNEY AND IS REDEEMED…HE CARRIES THE WHITE ROSE IN HIS HAND, A GOLDEN DAWN SYMBOL OF SILENCE AND REBIRTH.………………………………….

THE ‘INNER UNREAL’
PAIN…

HE NEEDED SOMETHING… SOMETHING TO MAKE IT GO AWAY. THERE WAS NOT ENOUGH TIME. HE DID NOT HAVE ENOUGH PATIENCE.

HE WATCHED THE SHADOWS REFLECTING THE TELEVISION LIGHT COMING FROM THE OTHER ROOM. HE COULD BARELY HEAR THE SOUND EXCEPT ONCE IN A WHILE A ‘SPIKE’ OF LAUGHTER OR CRASHING CARS CAME INTO HIS SENSES.

MARSHA HAD LEFT THIS MORNING.

AN ARGUMENT…MORE OF A POWER STRUGGLE…SHE WOULD NOT LEAVE THE ‘SHESHADOWS’ OF HER INNER DARKNESS…THE EROS HYSTERIA THAT MADE HER MYSTERIOUS AND VERY SEDUCTIVE…HER ‘MISTRESS OF MISDIRECTION’ BEHAVIORS THAT KEPT HIM ‘OFF BALANCE’…HER NEED TO CONTROL WITH PANIC ALARMS AND SEXUAL SIRENS OF VULNERABILITY AND HUNGER…

HE LOVED BEING ABLE TO JUMP THROUGH ‘HOOPS’ AND OVERCOME HER OBSTACLES AND DENIALS…HE LOVED THE DANCE OF BEING AN ACROBAT TUNING TO THE DRAMAS OF HER SIREN DREAMS. IT WAS HIS ATHLETIC TALENT AND PLEASURE FOCUSED IN A DRIVE TO RELEASE…TO SCORE THE TOUCHDOWN OVERCOMING THE ADVERSITY AND BE APPRECIATED FOR HIS CREATIVE CAPACITY…HIS SEXUAL STRENGTH…

THEIR PASSION WAS FIRE AND ICE AS VOLCANIC ERUPTIVENESS FLOWING AS ‘EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN’…A DYNAMISM OF WOUNDEDNESS, DESIRE, LOVE, ESCAPE AND EXPANSION…

MARSHA KNEW THE POWER CONTROLS AND DISTANCINGS OF BEING THE ‘ICE MAIDEN’…THE WOMAN OF DREAMS…THE WOMAN CLOSE TO HIS SENSES SEEKING THE ACOUSTICAL GODDESS OF RESONANCE-SENSAMORA…

SENSAMORA FOSTERING THE AGGRESSIONS OF THE ‘MAD THUD IN THE MESS THIS’…THE DRIVES OF WILL TO PENETRATION…THE DRIVES OF THWARTING MALE ENERGIES OR REDIRECTING REPRODUCTIVE EROS INTO CONSUMPTION AND AMBITION…

AT FIRST HE BELIEVED THAT HER ‘VEILING DANCE’ WOULD RUN ITS’ COURSE…THE ‘TRANCING’ WAS HER TEASE AS SHE DANCED THROUGHOUT THE DAY PLEASING HERSELF IN AN INTENSITY…AN ALMOST ‘WHIRLING DERVISH’ SPINNING OF GLAZED EYES ENABLING HER TO ESCAPE FROM THE TRAUMAS THAT HAD DEFINED HER LIFE.

IT WAS ALWAYS A CHALLENGE TO DEAL WITH HER ‘HIGH WIRE’ ACT…SHE WAS ALL OBSTACLES AND BARRIERS CONSTANTLY EGGING FOR THE RELEASE THAT WOULD GET HER OUT OF HER PSYCHE’ PRISON…A SENSORY MEMORY JAIL OF FEAR AND RESENTMENT…THERE WAS SO MUCH THAT WAS ‘VEILED’ IN GUARDING THE ‘WOUNDED GIRL’…SHE HAD SO MUCH RUTHLESSNESS AVAILABLE TO BE THE ‘BITCH’ WOMAN STARVING FOR THE SUSTENANCE OF REAL LOVE WHILE SEEKING THE CONTROLS OF ‘POWER LOVE’.

POWER LOVE…I GUESS THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERED TO HER…SHE NEVER FELT A SENSE OF HER REAL SELF…AN EMPOWERMENT OF AUTHENTICITY... SHE HAD BUILT A FORTRESSED ‘INNER UNREAL’…A BARBICAN SHAME FORTRESS OF DEFENSES…A CASTLE OF PSYCHE PUZZLES…A LABYRINTH FILLED WITH ‘HUNGRY GHOSTS’ OF ‘UNLIVED AND DEADENED SENSES’…

POWER LOVE…A DEMANDING STRANGE COMBINATION OF RESTRAINTS MIXED WITH ASSERTIVE FLOWING TIMES OF AGGRESSIVE BOLDNESS…EROS ENERGIES OF ‘CHANNELLED AND PATTERNED’ SEXUALITY…A FILTRATION SYSTEM OF SURVIVING THE ‘EARLY HARM RESONANCE’ AND THE ECHOES OF ‘DEEP WOUNDEDNESS’ WHILE STILL FINDING RELEASE BY MANY DIFFERENT MEANS…
IN SOME WAYS THE ‘RECKLESSNESS’ OF THEIR SEXUALITY WAS A HEALTHY ‘REBELLIOUSNESS’, AN ANTI-SOCIAL ASSERTION OF NEEDS REACHING THE SURFACE…NEEDS BEING MORE IMPORTANT THAN SOCIALLY SANCTIONED WAYS OF ‘ACCEPTABLE BEHAVIOR’.

SEX WAS THEIR FIRESTORM OF REBIRTHING…A WAY OF GRASPING FOR REAL URGENCY IN EACH ENCOUNTER… TIMES OF BEING MORE IMPORTANT THAN CEREBRAL OR RATIONAL… JUST FEELING THE PLEASURES SURFACING INTO THE ‘PRESENCE’ IN OVERCOMING THE CONSTRAINTS OF THE ‘INNER UNREAL’…

PATIENCE IN BEING IN THE FLIGHT AND FIGHT NUANCES OF POWER LOVE…THE ESSENCES CALLING FORTH A SINCERE DEMAND FOR BRAZEN AND BOLDNESS EFFORTS…TO OVERCOME THE SEXUAL COWARDICE OF VIRGINIA WOOLF AND THE COURAGE TO DO AS SEXUAL INSTINCT FELT ‘RIGHT’…TO BREATHE INTO THE ANXIETY AND UNCERTAINTY OF THE RISK OF MOVING FORWARD…MAYBE NEEDING THE RISK AS A DANGER VEHICLE TO ACCESS THE ‘RELEASE’…SO MUCH DEPENDS UPON THE CHEMISTRY OF THE ‘PERCOLATION’…THE DESIRE TO BE IN UNITY BEYOND THE SPLITTING OFF AND PARTITIONING OF WHAT ONE CAN LIVE WITH AND WHAT ONE CAN GET AWAY WITH…

AS ERIC HOFFER SAID ‘EVERY READJUSTMENT IS A CRISIS IN SELF ESTEEM’… THE TIMES OF OPPORTUNITY… ENCOUNTER…THE COURAGE TO VENTURE… ADVENTURE… INTO THE UNPREDICTABILITY… RISK…DANGER…DRAMA…

YEP, THERE WAS ‘DANGER’ IN HER MOSTLY ‘STRANGER’ DENIALS, MANIPULATIONS AND WITHHOLDING RHYTHMS… HER SHIFTS OF FRUSTRATIONS AND NEEDS AS SHE MOVED IN HER WOUNDED ‘WOMAN CHILD’ WAYS THAT PIERCED HIS HUNGRY DESIRE TO ‘TOUCH’… CALLING FORTH HIS HUNGER TO ‘MAKE IT ALL BETTER’…SHE CHALLENGED HIM TO SEEK ‘A’ AND ‘L’…THE PSYCHE’ PATHING OF ‘THE WOMAN SATISFIED’AND FILLED WITH CREATIVE ENERGIES…AIR TO THE LETTER ‘A’ AND VENUS TO THE ‘L’…

IT WAS HIS BLIND SPOT…HIS ACHILLES HEEL…THE DRAW OF HER ‘EROTIC NEUROTIC’ SEDUCTIVENESS AS A MYSTERY THAT THEN ‘SOLVED’ HIS OWN RELEASE FROM THE DEEP YIN OF HIS OWN FEMININE…IT WAS ADDICTIVE YET IT PROVIDED A MEANS TO MOVE ON…

IT WAS HIS JOURNEY TO ACHIEVE ‘ALONE’ OR ‘AL’ ‘ONE’…THE HARMONIZING OF HEART IN WILL WITH THE RHYTHMS OF THE UNIVERSE…THE CREATIVE CAPACITY AS WELL-STEIN OF YIN-YANG RANGINGS OF EROS LIFE FORCE PRESZENCE…THE ‘ALONE’ STATE OF CREATIVITY IN PURPOSE…

HIS FEMININE WAYS WERE IN HIS WOUNDEDNESS AND RECEPTIVITY, A MIXED BURDEN OF LOSS AND INERTIA AS LIMITATION… A LEGACY OF TRAUMA AND THE VESTIGES OF A MATERNAL STATE OF PSYCHE BONDAGE …HE CARRIED HER SUPPRESSED ENERGIES WITHIN HIS SOUL…HE FELT HER ‘SHESHADOWS’ BECAUSE THEY WERE A PART OF HIS DEEPLY CONSTRUCTED ‘INNER UNREAL’….


POWER LOVE…THE QUEST TO OVERCOME ‘POWERLESSNESS’ AND FEELINGS OF ‘NOT GOOD ENOUGH’ OR ‘NOT WORTH IT’…

IT WAS HIS OWN VULNERABILITY THAT HE SAW IN HER… THE DRIVE OF POWER LOVE WAS LIKE AN ADDICTION DEMANDING A ‘FIX’….A FORM OF ‘FIX YEN’ OR ‘FICTION’…A FORM OF ‘A’S YEN OR ASIAN…DEPTHS OF THE SENSINGS OF THE MIDDLE KINGDOM…THE ECHOIC TIMBRE OF THE ‘ORIENTAL AS ‘ORIENT’ ‘AL’…

YEAH…BUT IT WAS MORE COMPLICATED THAN THAT…

THERE WAS ‘INNER NECESSITY’ CALLING FORTH ‘DECONSTRUCTION’…FACING INNER ‘ILLNESS’ AS HE LEARNED TO BE MORE PRESENT GENERATING ADRENALINES AND THE HORMONAL GROWTH OF TRANSFORMATION. HE HAD TO WORK THROUGH THAT DEEP FEMININE TO ACHIEVE GENITAL PRIMACY…IT WAS ALWAYS ‘THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO’…

POWER LOVE…SOME WAY OF REAL LOVE…SOME MIXTURE OF A WILL TO CONNECT IN A PATH OF HEART CENTERING KNOWING THE ‘FILTRATIONS’ OF WOUNDEDNESS…POWER LOVE IN A RECIPROCITY OF COMING FORWARD INTO HEALTHY GENITAL FULLNESS OF TUMESCENCE AND SWELLING…
POWER LOVE…A SENSE OF THE ‘BIG OTHER’…THE SNAKE OF A ‘GIANT’ DRIVING HIS HUNGERS…SOMEONE HE KNEW AND SOMEONE HE WOULD NEVER BE…

DON COYOTE…THE TRICKSTER…THE ‘BIG OTHER’ OF SILENCE AND MIRAGE…THE GUIDE INTO THE DEPTHS OF DARKNESS WHERE POWER IS QUITE CAPABLE OF DESTROYING LOVE…THE POWER THAT CONQUERS LOVE AND SEEKS TO NEUTRALIZE NEEDS…

HE BELIEVED IN THE COURAGE OF TRANSFORMATION…THE BIOCHEMICAL ENERGIES OF BELIEF THAT PHILOSOPHY IS CHEMISTRY…A HEALTHY GROWTH BASED ATTITUDE…THE ALTERATION OF PHYSICAL AND SPIRITUAL FUELS…THE ALTERATION OF INTENSITIES AND CONSCIOUSNESS AS MEETING THE OTHERS WHO WERE AWAKENED TO THE POTENTIALS OF ACTUAL REAL TIME PRESENCE…

TO ENCOUNTER THOSE WHO WERE BEYOND THE SELF DECEPTIONS OF ‘THEY ONLY DREAM THEY ARE AWAKE’…TO MEET THOSE WITH A WILL TO GET BEYOND DREAMS AND FANTASY AND THE SWAMPS AND TRAPS OF COMMISERATIONS…TO MEET THE ONES BEYOND ‘PROLONGED ADOLESCENCE’ AND SHAME…TO FIND MATURITY OF PRESENCE…A PSYCHE MATURATION WITH INTENT TO ‘NOT REPEAT’ THE MISTAKES OF THE PAST…

POWER LOVE…THEIR POWER LOVE WAS NEVER NOVELTY OR DISPLAY…IT WAS ALWAYS IN HEART WITH A WILL TO CONNECT…A STATE OF ‘BEING IN THE CONNECTION’…TUNING IN TO THE INTIMACY OF THE TENDER ‘QUAKING’…THE ‘AWAKENING’ OF TRUE VOICE…TRUE RESONANCE…

A GREAT CIRCULARITY RHYTHM DEFINED THEIR ENCOUNTERS…

MANY ALTERED STATES OF DEEP TIMINGS…OPPORTUNE KINETICS…MUSCLE AND SPIRITUAL FIRINGS… SURGES OF HEART AND HOPEFULNESS…

POWER LOVE…A PARALLELISM OF ‘SUSTAINED INVERSION’ STRENGTHENING CREATIVE CAPACITY AND INDIVIDUATION AT DEEPER RESONANCE OF YIN AND YANG…AN EXPANSION OF THE ‘WELL-STEIN’ CREATIVE CAPACITY…A ROUNDEDNESS OF PRESENCE…THE HARMONY OF YIN-YANG EBBS AND TIDES…

MARSHA LEFT THIS MORNING.

‘TOO FAR’…SHE SAID. ‘THIS TIME YOU HAVE GONE TOO FAR’.

‘TOO FAR’… I YELLED AT HER… ‘YOU ARE TRAPPED IN THAT IMAGE AND ARE AFRAID TO BE REAL…YOU HAVE NOT GONE FAR ENOUGH’…

SHE STOPPED FOR A MOMENT AND THE RAGE WAS IN HER EYES…SHE SILENTLY GLARED…SUDDENLY TURNED AND LEFT. SHE WAS GONE AND I WAS FEELING A MIXTURE OF RELIEF AND LOSS.

WHAT DOES SHE WANT…SHE DOESN’T WANT WHAT I WANT…SHE JUST WANTS TO FEEL SAFE AND COMFORTED…I WANT TO FEEL ALIVE AND FULLY PRESENT…

‘TOO FAR’…

I KNEW THAT ‘ONLY NOTHING’ WAS THAT KIND OF ‘TOO FAR’…
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TRUMP I…THE MAGICIAN…THE MAGUS…THE JUGGLER AS MERCURY WHO IS WISDOM AS THE WORD AND WILL CREATING THE WORLD THROUGH THE ‘FLUIDIC BASIS OF ALL TRANSMISSION OF ACTIVITY’… FOCUSED ENERGY TO MANIFEST ONE’S DESIRES THROUGH UNDERSTANDING OF SPECIAL KNOWLEDGE… TRANSFORMATION THROUGH WILLPOWER HARNESSING CREATIVE FORCES, PROBLEM SOLVING, COMMUNICATIONS AND TIMINGS OF ESSENCES…DISCIPLINE AND DETERMINATION…THE TEMPERING OF TENDENCIES OF ‘TRICKSTERISM’ AND ‘SLEIGHT OF HAND’ AS ONE TUNES INTO THE INTUITIVE AND THE DEEP FEMININE…THE COURAGE IN DOING ONE’S HOMEWORK AND UNIFYING ONE’S SPIRIT IN IDENTIFYING THE SOURCE OF NECESSARY NEW KNOWLEDGE FOR HARNESSING THE WISDOM OF GOING FORWARD…

IT IS MANIFESTATION…THE MAGICIAN IS THE CHANNEL NOT THE SOURCE OF THE POWERS…HE IS LEMNISCATE AND OUROBOROS OF INFINITY BALANCING SELF BETWEEN THE EARTH AND THE HEAVENS…THE UNION WITH MAN AND THE DIVINE…ENERGY INVOCATION…THOUGHT BECOMING MANIFEST…MERCURY SKILL IN THE MAGUS OF POWER…THE INTELLIGENCE OF TRANSPARENCY…TO DARE…TO KNOW…TO WILL…TO BE SILENT…HE BALANCES THE INFINITE OF THE NAME OF ‘JESUS’ IN A GEMATRIA OF NUMEROLOGY AS 888…THE SPIRITUAL SUN OR LOGOS OF ENLIGHTENMENT…HE POINTS TO THE HEAVENS AND THE EARTH SIMULTANEOUSLY AS ‘AS ABOVE, SO BELOW’…

THE HAT TRICK....

NOW YOU SEE IT…THEN YOU DON’T.

DENIAL WAS THE NORM IN THEIR RELATIONSHIP.

THERE WERE RABBITS AND DREAMS OF MEANING THAT IT WAS ALL REALLY WORTH IT. ‘BEING THERE’…THE STATE OF KNOWING ONE’S CENTER AS A BALANCING OF ‘YIN AND YANG’…GETTING THE FERTILITY OUT OF STORAGE… ‘OUT OF THE MAGIC HAT’ AND INTO PRESENCE…

AS MACHIAVELLI WROTE IN ‘CLIZIA’… ‘FOR THE CLOSER A MAN IS TO HIS DESIRE THE MORE HE DESIRES IT, AND SINCE HE CANNOT HAVE IT, IT CAUSES HIM GREATER TORMENT’.

‘TOO FAR’ ECHOED IN HIS HEART.

HE HAD TO LEARN AS WILLIAM BLAKE HAD SAID ‘THE ROAD OF EXCESS LEADS TO THE PALACE OF WISDOM’…

‘FIGHT OR FLIGHT’ SEEMED TO BE THE EITHER/OR IN THE ONGOING DRAMA OF RELATIONSHIP DEFINITION…THE EXPOSURE OF VULNERABILITY IN LOOKING INTO POWER LOVE IN A PROCESS OF PAIN AND DESIRE BEING MESHED IN AN AGGRESSION OF ASSERTIVE COMBUSTION…

EACH KNEW THE NEED TO EXCEED THE LIMITS OF THEIR ‘INNER UNREAL’ AND AFFIRM MORE OF THEIR HEALTHY ‘PRESENCE’…IT WAS ALWAYS A PART OF THEIR WAY OF FINDING EACH OTHER… IT WAS A CONFIDENCE IN THE ‘DOING’ AS REAL NOT SOME KIND OF IMITATIVE OR ROLE PLAYING OR ‘ACTING IN’ OR ‘ACTING OUT’ KIND OF ‘PERFORMANCE’…

IT WAS ALWAYS A FEELING THAT SHE WAS IMPENETRABLE…NOT REALLY KNOWABLE…DISTANCED AND OFF BALANCED…MAYBE MANIPULATIVE OR MAYBE JUST HURT…THE TRUTH OF THE REAL REASON FOR HER WITHDRAWAL OR FLIGHT WAS CONTROL AND SAFETY …IT WAS THE POTENTIAL OF EACH NEW ‘UNVEILING’ THAT COMPELLED…THE NEW ‘RESOLVE’ OF HIS TRANSFORMING SELF THAT WOULD SURFACE OUT OF THIS INNER DIALECTIC…

THE PHONE RANG…NO ONE WAS THERE.

IT RANG AGAIN. I LET IT RING. AFTER A DOZEN OR SO RINGS IT STOPPED.

MY FRUSTRATION AND WISH FOR DEEP INTIMACY WAS RISING…AN OPPORTUNITY IN MOVING WITH MY ANGER IN OVERCOMING THE ‘INNER UNREAL’ OF MY ‘CONSTRUCTED’ SELF IMAGE…THE PERSONALITY THAT I WANTED THE OTHERS TO SEE..

THE PHONE RANG AGAIN. HE PICKED IT UP. THERE WAS SILENCE…

THEN A SOFT VOICE SPOKE ‘I DON’T WANT TO HAVE THINGS BE LIKE THIS’…

‘MARSHA…LET ME BUY YOU A COFFEE AND WE CAN CLEAR THE AIR’…

SUDDENLY HER ANGER RAGED AT ME… ‘YOU IGNORE WHAT I SAID…YOU GO TOO FAR’

‘MAYBE WE HAVE NOT GONE FAR ENOUGH’

‘IT’S THAT NEGOTIATION THAT YOU WANT SEX ALL OF THE TIME’

‘…AND YOU ENJOY DENYING IT ALL OF THE TIME’

‘THAT’S NOT TRUE’… ‘YOU KNOW THAT IT IS ONLY GOOD WHEN IT FEELS RIGHT’…

‘IT IS LIKE WALKING ON ‘EGGS’ SOMETIMES IN GETTING YOU ‘IN THE MOOD’…

‘WINED AND DINED’ IS THE WAY IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE’…

THIS HAS NEVER BEEN A ‘WINE AND DINE’ RELATIONSHIP…IT IS MORE OF AN ‘EMOTIONAL CIRCUS’ WITH AN OPERA WAITING FOR ‘YOU KNOW WHO’ TO SING…

‘ARE YOU CALLING ME FAT”

IT FEELS LIKE A ‘HIP WAR’…I THINK YOU ENJOY THE ‘WOUNDEDNESS’ IN THE HIPS…IT MAKES ‘POWER LOVE’ WORTH IT…

SEE YOU GO ‘TOO FAR’… ‘TOO FAR’…

‘MAYBE SOME CAKE AND ICE CREAM WOULD BE FUN INSTEAD OF THIS ‘UGLINESS’… ‘COME ON HOW ABOUT A COOL ICE MOCHA’?

‘YOU THINK YOU CAN GET ME TO SHIFT THAT EASILY’…

‘I NEVER GET YOU TO SHIFT…YOU DECIDE FOR YOURSELF’…

‘YOU DO GO TOO FAR, Y’KNOW’…

‘MAYBE’…
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TRUMP 2…THE HIGH PRIESTESS…



THE ETERNAL VIRGIN…ISIS AND ARTEMIS CLOTHED IN THE LUMINOUS VEIL OF LIGHT…THE VEIL OF THE SPIRIT…INNER SPIRIT AND INNER SPACE… INNER VOICE AND HIDDEN MESSAGES…THE VIRGIN DAUGHTER STATE…THE MOON GODDESS STATE… BUDDING AWARENESS OF SEXUALITY IN YIN/YANG LIQUIDITY…LIFE WITHOUT MALE ENERGY… FEMININE ENMESHMENT AND FLOWS IN BODY FLUIDS AS WELL AS IN SPIRITUAL PRESENCE…SILENCE AND THE UNLOCKING OF MYSTERIES…INTUITIVENESS AND GRASP OF THE DEEP INNER WORKINGS OF THE UNSEEN…ULTIMATE EXPRESSION AND THE SOURCE OF WATER…TEMPERING JUDGEMENTS WITH A SENSE OF THE NEED FOR SAFENESS AND RECOGNIZE SUPERFICIALITY AND LEARN ADROITNESS OF STAYING OUT OF THE SPACE OF HELL-FIRE SCORN WHERE HYPERSENSITIVITY AND HYSTERIA REIGN…EXCESSIVE RELIANCE ON RATIONAL OR INTELLECTUAL WAYS AS WELL AS EXTERNAL VALIDATION…OBSERVING BUT NOT PARTICIPATING IN THE LIFE FORCE…NOTE THE POSITIONING BETWEEN PILLARS OF OPPOSITES IN POLARITY AND CHARGES…REGULATING THE FLOW AND DIRECTION OF VIBRATION…CONSCIOUSNESS…

IT IS THE KNOWLEDGE LIMITATIONS OF MYSTERY…THE MORE WE LEARN ABOUT IT THE MORE WE CANNOT KNOW IT…INTUITION IS ACCESS YET LIMITED IN THE TOTALITY OF KNOWING…


‘‘WHOOOOOOOO’ NEEDS HIM ANYWAY’

THE SACRED SPACE I HOLD FOR MYSELF… MY ZONE OF CONTROL… NO ONE WILL EVER BE THERE EXCEPT ME…I HAVE MY LIMITS…

‘YOU CAN’T JUST BUY ME OFF WITH AN ‘ICE MOCHA’…

‘WHY NOT’…

MARSHA THINKS TO HERSELF…‘HE GOES ‘TOO FAR’…I CANNOT LET HIM OWN ME…I REFUSE TO LET ANYONE MAKE ME LET GO OF WHO I AM…THE PERSON I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN…THE PERSON WHO HAS LEARNED TO SURVIVE WITHOUT ANYONE BEING THERE ESPECIALLY WHEN I REALLY NEEDED HELP’…

‘YEAH I HAVE AN ABANDONMENT ISSUE…SO WHAT…SO DOES EVERYONE’…

‘THAT SOUNDS LIKE CONTEMPT TO ME’…

MARSHA REMEMBERS A DIALOGUE WITH A ‘SHRINK’… ‘WELL DOCTOR… MAYBE IT IS AND I DON’T GIVE A FUCK…I WILL DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO GET WHAT I NEED EVEN IF I AM NOT A COMPLETELY PERFECT SPIRITUAL MODEL’…


MARSHA KEPT ON TALKING…‘SO I KNOW I HAVE PASSION FIRE FLOWING AND THAT I AM BURNING AWAY THE ‘UNNECESSARY’ AND THE ‘EXCESSES’…AT LEAST I KNOW I AM NOT DEADENED LIKE SO MANY WHO ‘ONLY DREAM THEY ARE AWAKE’…I HAVE FEELINGS THAT MATTER…

‘MARSHA,YOU KNOW I CANNOT WAIT ON SOMEONE LOST IN THEIR OWN INDULGENCES…SOMEONE WHO HAS NO TIME FOR MY NEEDS’…

‘YEAH..YOU SAY THAT THEN YOU TRY TO TAKE OFF MY PANTS AS YOU PLAY UPON MY GUILT. LOOK, I AM JUST STARTING TO BELIEVE THAT MY OWN NEEDS ARE IMPORTANT’…

AH QUITE TRUE YET YOUR UNCONSCIOUSNESS AND YOUR INNER UNREAL HAS BEEN DOING YOUR DIRTY WORK FOR A LONG TIME…YOU ARE JUST TIRED OF THE TIME IT TAKES AND YOU ARE BEGINNING TO FACE YOUR OWN RESOLVE…

‘WELL MY RESOLVE IS TO NOT HAVE TO WAIT FOR ANYONE…I NEED TO FEEL INDEPENDENT IN MY OWN SPEED AND CAPACITY…MAYBE THEN I WILL DO SOME ORIGINAL CREATIVE GENERATIVITY’…

‘AH…PERSONAL SPACE… SPACE TO FLOURISH IN ‘GETTING THE FUELS’ YOU NEED TO DO WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S WORK’…‘FINDING ONE’S PASSION’…

‘MY WAY’

‘YEAH, ‘MY WAY’ OR THE HIGHWAY’…

‘YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE SEEKING ‘INTEGRITY’…

‘I KNOW THAT IS WHY WE ARE STILL FIGHTING FOR THE INTIMACY FULLNESS IN GETTING BEYOND REACTIVITY AND THE EXCESSES OF THWARTING… THE TRUTH OF PRESENCE… ‘REAL HEART’ IN A ‘COMING FORWARD’ AS ‘REAL SOUL’…

‘IT TAKES TIME TO LET GO…MEMORY IMAGES AND FANTASY PATTERNS PROVIDE SAFETY AND PROTECTION AGAINST THE VULNERABILITY OF BEING OR FEELING NEGLECTED…YOU DON’T REALLY KNOW WHAT I HAD TO DO…

‘AH, THE NEED FOR POWER LOVE’…

‘MOOD SWINGS’…MAYBE IT IS JUST ‘INERTIA’ AS A CHANNEL OF ANAL RETENTIVENESS…WHERE THE PRIVATE LITTLE REALM OF THE ‘INNER UNREAL’ IS ALL THAT MATTERS…MAYBE ‘POWER LOVE’ IS ALL ABOUT A GROUND FLOOR OF PERSONAL SAFENESS…MAYBE ALL THAT MATTERS IS THAT YOU HAVE BUILT A FORTRESS SO THAT NO ONE CAN HURT YOU AGAIN…

TRUE TO SOME EXTENT YET I KNOW THAT A SHIP MAY BE SAFE IN A HARBOR BUT THAT IS NOT WHAT SHIPS ARE FOR…BEING SAFE SO THAT NO ONE CAN HURT YOU AGAIN…BEING INDEPENDENT TO TAKE CARE OF ONESELF…ABLE TO BE ‘ALONE’ IN THE ECHOES OF A SHOCK LOSS OF INNOCENCE MEMORY AND STILL FULLY GO INTO THE FUTURE…

MARSHA CURLS SPIRALLING INWARD…SEEKING A SAFENESS CONTROL AND SIMULTANEOUSLY MANIPULATING HER CAT-LIKE SEXUALITY…A DESIRE TO HAVE TOTAL CONTROL…POWER LOVE…THE RELEASE THAT MEANS ‘NO ONE’ CAN MAKE HER FEEL ‘DEPENDENT’ OR ‘ABANDONED’ AGAIN…THE SEEMING SOLUTION QUEST OF ALONENESS IN BECOMING SEPARATE FROM THE RHYTHMS OF LIFE…

ILLUSION…SPLITTING OFF…DISSOCIATION…

TO ‘OWN ONE’S OWN’ EMOTIONAL TERRAIN YET SHE KNOWS THAT ‘REAL ENCOUNTER’ IS THE DANGER OF EMOTIONAL UPHEAVAL AND THE LACK OF CONTROL OF HER ‘INNER UNREAL’…A LOSS OF THE ‘SELF’ FEARING THE VERY THING DESIRED YET RECOILING AND PREVENTING THE ‘SURPRISE’ OF EROS…

‘WHOOOOOOOOOOOO NEEDS HIM ANYWAY’…

‘IT IS BETTER TO BE A FISH WITHOUT A BICYCLE LEARNING HOW TO ENJOY THE INTENSITY OF THE ‘VIRGINALONENESS’ ZONING OF CLOSED OFF SEXUALITY…AT LEAST ONE KNOWS ‘SELF-RELIANCE’ THAT ONE’S OWN HANDS ARE THERE AND ALL EMOTIONS ARE CONTAINED’…

BEING LOST IN LOSS WHILE SIMULTANEOUSLY PLEASURING ONESELF IS THE INNER SEDUCTION OF ‘HYSTERIA SENSUALIZATION’ RIDING THE INNER FANTASY ECHOES OF DISTORTION… THE PARTIAL OR INCOMPLETE RELEASE BECOMES THE NORM…THE ‘BETTER THAN NOTHING’ SQUIRMING PLEASURE DOES HAVE VALUE YET THE ‘SPLITTING OFF’ OF THE REAL HAS LONG TERM CONSEQUENCES…

THE TOTALITY OF SELF IS ONLY ACHIEVABLE IN A FULLNESS OF ENCOUNTER…GENITAL PRIMACY IS NEVER ENCOUNTERED WHEN ONE IS CURLED INWARD IN THE ‘FALSE ECHOES OF SELF ABSORPTION’…

THE SELF ABSORPTION MAY BE A NECESSARY PASSAGE TO FACE FEARS AND DAMAGE…TO LOVE ONESELF AND MAYBE THEN LEARN TO LOVE THE ‘OTHER’…

AS JULIA KRISTEVA SAID ‘ONE MUST RENOUNCE ONE’S AUTO-EROTICISM IN ORDER TO FIND A PARTNER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX’…

ONE’S OWN EROTICISM LIMITS AS CONTROL AND FORTRESSING OF THE FORCES WITHIN… THERE IS NO FULLY REALIZED SELF IF ONE DOES NOT ‘MATE’ OR ENCOUNTER THE PRESENCE OF THE OTHER IN COMPLEX REAL INTIMACY…WITHOUT REAL INTIMACY EVERYTHING IS PRECONDITIONED AS A ‘COURTING’ MODE EVERYTHING IS KNOWN IN ADVANCE…NO SURPRISES ARE ALLOWED…ONE LIVES WITHIN SELF CONTAINMENT AND NEVER EXPERIENCES THE FEELINGS OF BEING FULLY HUMAN…

IT IS AS ‘GROUCHO MARX’ ONCE SAID…EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU REMINDS ME OF YOU-----YOUR EYES, YOUR EARS, YOUR MOUTH, YOUR LIPS, YOUR ARMS AND LEGS…EVERYTHING BUT YOUR SELF’…

IT IS ALL ABOUT HUNGER AND THE MISSING THAT DRIVES US INTO SHORT TERM PACIFIERS AND CONVENIENCES…IT IS AS RICHARD WRIGHT SAID ‘MAN CAN STARVE FROM A LACK OF SELF-REALIZATION AS MUCH AS THEY CAN FROM A LOAF OF BREAD’…

IT IS THE TERRAIN OF THE ‘BAKKWEIRD’ CURLING IN TO THE CAVE OF EXPLORATION UNABLE TO MEET THE UNKNOWN OF THE REAL…IT IS THE ZONING AND HONING SPACE OF THE MISTRESS OF INDIRECTION…THE DISSATISFIED AND WOUNDEDNESS SEEKING THROUGH FLIGHT AND ESCAPISM FANTASY TO DRAW THE AVAILABLE ENERGIES TO FUEL THE PATTERN…IT IS THE ALCOHOLIC ‘NOT GOOD ENOUGH’ INFERIORITY SENSES AS REINFORCED BY LACK AND SHAME…

IT IS THE ‘INTERIORITY’ AS SPIRALLING SELF IN A STRATEGY OF POWER LOVE…THE QUEST FOR CONTROL AND SOME FORM OF SATISFACTION BY WHATEVER MEANS…

THE DARKNESS WITHIN…THE TERRAIN OF ‘SHESHADOWS’… SURVIVAL…COPING… THE HALF A LOAF IS BETTER THAN NONE WAY OF GOING ON… THE PERFORMANCE AND ROLE MUST YIELD TO THE FEELING…THE CASTLE FORTRESSING GAUNTLET OF THE DRAGON LADY…AN IDENTITY OF DENIAL ENVELOPED IN FIRE…THE RESCUE OF THE PRINCESS TRAPPED BEHIND TOO MANY DISAPPOINTMENTS…

GRASPING FOR POWER LOVE…YET KNOWING LOVE IS THE PERSONAL POWER THAT IS THE REAL…

IT IS THE OVERCOMING OF THE SELF…IN THE RELEASE… THE POSSIBLE... SHE KNOWS THAT ‘HE CAN TAKE HER TO PLACES SHE CANNOT GO BY HERSELF’… SHE KNOWS IT IS THE COST OF THE UNKNOWN…A COST THAT ONE MAY NOT LIKE THE SELF BEYOND THE CRAFTED ‘IMAGE’ THAT EMERGES FROM THE TRIALS…

IT IS A COMPLEX WAY OF PERSONALITY AS ‘DESIRE IS A STRATEGIST’ SEEKING TO SATISFY BY WHATEVER MEANS…SHE MAY GENERATE OBSTACLES AS CONTROL MECHANISMS OF INTENSITY THAT ‘TEMPORARILY’ FEED HER ‘UNREAL’ WHILE LOOKING FOR THE ‘FLAW’ THAT WILL ALLOW HER TO ERUPT…

SHE WANTS THE MALE ENERGY THAT SHE DOES NOT HAVE NATURALLY AS HE NEEDS THE FEMININE TO NEUTRALIZE HIS DEEP VULNERABLE DEPENDENCY …SHE LIKE THE FEMININE MAN BECAUSE SHE CAN BE MORE AGGRESSIVE AND LIBERATED AS A MORE FULLY REALIZED SELF…

POWER LOVE...

POWER CONQUERS LOVE. LOVE CONQUERS POWER. IT IS A WILL TO CONNECT AS A PATH OF HEART PRESENCE. IT IS THE INTIMACY OF REAL TIME WITHOUT MISDIRECTION AND ESCAPIST FANTASY. IT IS LOVE OVERCOMING THE SHAME AND SELF DECEPTIONS OF THE INNER UNREAL. IT IS LOVE CHOOSING TO BE POTENT AND VULNERABLE AS ENCOUNTER CALLS FORTH TRUE ENERGIES. IT IS ACCESS AND ACCEPTANCE AS EACH RESPECTS THE YIN/YANG RANGING DEPTHS OF THE QUEST TO AFFIRM THE FULLNESS OF AUTHENTICITY…

IT IS REAL INSTINCT AND INTUITION OF ENCOUNTER… TUNING AND TONING IN HEART WILL TO CONNECT…IT IS LOVE GREATER THAN FEAR…

STEP, STEP, STEP… LEARNING A LITTLE BIT AT A TIME…AN EMERGENCE SHEDDING THE EXCESSES THAT SUFFOCATE THE REAL… ‘JOUISSANCE’…THE PLEASURE IN THE SPONTANEITY…AN EMERGENCE OF THE REAL IN FEELINGS AND WILL OF CONNECTION…

TRUMP 3…THE EMPRESS…AS SALT…THE INACTIVE PRINCIPLE OF NATURE…PASSIVE POWER…ELEGANCE…GENTLENESS…ALCHEMICAL SALT…FRUITFULNESS…LOVE…BEAUTY…SILVER…THE GREAT MOTHER AND HER OFFSPRING IN THE CONTINUITY OF LIFE AND INHERITANCE OF BLOOD UNITING ALL FORMS OF NATURE…GENERATIVITY…A PASSAGE FROM ONE STAGE OF GROWTH TO ANOTHER…ENCOUNTERING THE WOMAN OF ONE’S DREAMS…SENSUALITY BEYOND IDLENESS…BEING IN AWARENESS OF THE ALL EMBRACING PRIMORDIAL MATERNAL THAT NOURISHES AND PROTECTS EVERTHING…PREGNANCY AND FERTILITY SUSTENANCE… SOMETHING IS COMING INTO BEING…INTO FRUITION… TEMPERING IN KNOWING THE OBSTACLES OF ‘UNPRODUCTIVE AND EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE’ PEOPLE…NEGLECTING THE WISDOM OF THE HEART…A CONSCIOUSNESS OF HEALTHY AND SHARED ABUNDANCE…UNION OF THE TWO OPPOSING POWERS OF FORCE AND FORM…THE ROOT ESSENCE OF PURE EMOTION…THE UNIVERSAL MOTHER/WOMB OF MANIFESTATION…PLEASURE/SUCCESS/LUXURY…BUILDER OF FORM…SHE IS ATTRACTIVE AND ATTRACTS WHAT SHE DESIRES…THE FEMININE PRINCIPLE
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‘THE OBSTACLES OF SATURN EATING THE CHILDREN’

SMALL ACCUMULATIONS OVER A LONG PERIOD OF TIME BECOME TRIALS AND TESTS PROTECTING ‘WHAT MATTERS’ YET SO MUCH IS EXHAUSTED IN THE TRIVIAL AND THE PETTY… ‘WHAT MATTERS’ IS NEVER PRESENT AND IT IS AS ROBERT FROST CAUTIONED THAT WHAT IS ‘WALLED OUT’ IS AS IMPORTANT AS WHAT IS ‘WALLED IN’…

MARSHA LOOKED AT HIM… ‘I HAVE TO GO…I DON’T HAVE ENOUGH TIME’…

SHE NEEDED MORE AND MORE TIME FOR HER OWN ACTIVITIES…THE SOLUTIONS TO THE SPOTLIGHT POSITION…THE ‘ROLE’ OF THE DRAMA PATHING SHE DEMANDED FROM HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS… A RECOGNITION DEBT…SO MUCH WAS DUTY AND OBLIGATION AND PACIFICATION OF THE FORCES ALL AROUND HER…THE OPERA DRAMA OF UPHEAVAL AND REINTEGRATION…A DIVA DRAMA OF SUSTENANCE…SHE FELT ‘INVISIBLE’ AS SHE SAT IN HER MEDIATRIX ROLE OF SUBTLE SHIFTS AND DIPLOMACY…SHE DID NOT FEEL APPRECIATED FOR THE ‘STROKES’ AND GUIDANCE OF THE DYNAMISM…SHE ONLY FELT THE ENERGIES AS THE GROUNDED IN HER BEING…HYSTERIA SENSUALISATION IN OVER-EROTICIZED SENSES…THE AROUSALS OF SELF ABSORPTION… ‘NOTHINGNESS’ THAT CRUSHES INTO LONELINESS AND ‘ILLUSIONS’ COLLIDING WITH SELF DECEPTION…

SHE IS IN A PRISM OR KALEIDESCOPE OF ALTERING LIGHTS…ANY SENSE OF BLINKING AND FLICKING IS THE DISTRACTION OF AN ECHO THAT FACILITATES CONTROL OF A CERTAIN SPACE… IT IS A FANTASY DISCONNECT AS SHE SEEKS TO BE THE CENTER OF ATTENTION EVEN IF IT IS ONLY HER OWN SELF ABSORPTION…

THEY ARE ALL TOO BUSY TO SEE THE DEEPER REALITY OF AWARENESS…

IT IS ‘ECHO’ LOST IN HER ECHOES AND NARCISSUS MESMERIZED BY THE POOL REFLECTIONS…IT IS THE ‘TOO CLOSE TO THE TRUTH’ TO SEE IT…YET SHE FEELS IT IN THE ‘ALARMS AND SIRENS’ OF NOT BEING SATISFIED…

THE INNER TERRAIN OF ‘HUNGRY GHOSTS’ HOLDS HER IN AN INERTIA OF MAINTENANCE AND RECOIL…

IT IS THE VALUE OF THE OUTSIDER AS PRINCE MEETING HER IN DESIRE TO LEAVE…KNOWING ‘THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO’…KNOWING THE POWER LOVE OF STANDING ON ONE’S OWN…KNOWING ‘BEAUTY AND THE BEAST’ AS THE ACROBATICS OF THE PRINCE LOVING THE PRINCESS ‘ENOUGH’ TO BRING HER THROUGH THE DEPTHS OF EARLY HARM AND FILIAL DEPENDENCY’…

HE TRANSFORMS INTO HER FEMININE SHADOWS AS SHE HOLDS THE POWER OF THE FATHER UNABLE TO LET GO…THE BLOCKED AND WOUNDEDNESS OF THE FROZEN IN TIME LITTLE ONE IMPRISONED IN A REACTIVITY AND A FANTASY DREAM OF RESCUE AND RELEASE…THE FLIGHT AND ESCAPISM OF SURVIVAL UNWILLING AND UNABLE TO LET GO…TO DISSOLVE THE ‘INNER UNREAL’ KNOWING ‘THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO’…

HE HAD LOOKED INTO THE DEPTHS OF HER EYES SEEING FRIGHT AND FLIGHT…PROTECTING THE VIRGINAL WITH SO MUCH DARKNESS AND LAYERINGS OF ‘TREASURED LOSS’…SHE HAD NOT RECONCILED HER REAL HUNGERS OF SEXUALITY AS THOSE FEELINGS WERE ALWAYS ‘TAINTED’ BY THE LOST INNOCENCE’ AS WELL AS THE MODALITIES OF POWER LOVE…

A TERROR OF ABANDONMENT BECAME SEDUCTIVENESS IN BAITING AND TESTING…THE ‘MASTER’BATING’ OF A WITHHELD CONTEMPT…A DISTANCING ANGER FOR NO ONE COULD REACH HER THERE IN THAT PLACE OF HURT…

SHE NEEDED HIM TO GO INTO THAT SPACE UNDER THE ROCK…THAT SPACE OF A POTENTIAL RESURRECTION AND A REDEMPTION FOR ALL THE SUFFERING…SHE EXERCISES A ‘PASSIVE AGGRESSIVENESS’ OF MASKING AND ENVY DESIRING THAT WHICH WAS WITHHELD FROM THE WOUNDED SPACE…THE SPACE OF TERROR,FRIGHT NOTHINGNESS AND EMPTINESS…

THUS SHE SEEKS THE ‘A’ AND THE ‘L’ OF AIR AND VENUS TO ACHIEVE THE ‘WOMAN SATISFIED’ AND ‘FILLED WITH CREATIVE ENERGY’…A PURITY OF NEW FLOWS AS HIS ‘IRE’ IS GREATER THAN HER ‘AGONY’…

SHE IS DRAWN TO THE MALE HOMOSEXUAL PHALLICISM…THE EROS OF THE PHALLIC WOMAN MOVING IN CONTROL OF MALE ENERGIES…AN ORALITY OF CONSUMING YET THWARTING REAL GENITAL PRIMACY…A SEARCH FOR POWER LOVE AS OWNERSHIP OF HER OWN ENERGIES. VOYEURISTICALLY SEEING THE HOMOSEXUALITY AGGRESSIONS AND DESIRES FUELS HER DEFENSES AND WAYS OF CONTROLLING HER MALE ENCOUNTERS…IT IS POWER CONQUERS LOVE.IT IS POWER LOVE OVERCOMING ‘POWERLESSNESS’ IN RELEASING FROM THE LIMITS OF THE AUTHORITY OF THE PATERNAL…

TO GENERATE OUT OF ‘THE WOMAN FILLED WITH CREATIVE ENERGIES’…TO OWN HER OWN SOUL…A GREAT DANCE OF DIFFICULTY AS HE RISKS THE OUTCOME OF DISPOSABILITY AS SHE ACHIEVES HER CREATIVE CENTERING IN SOLITUDE ‘ALONE’ AND STRENGTHENED IN A ‘RECONSTITUTION’ OF PRESZENCE…

POWER LOVE

SHE ACCESSES THE YANG TO BEGIN TO DISSOLVE HER FALSELY STRUCTURED ‘INNER UNREAL’…THE PENETRATION SEEDING OVERCOMING THE OLD ORDER…THE RESTABILIZING OF THE REAL FEELINGS AS RECENTERED IN HER REAL SELF…


‘I HAVE TO GO…I HAVE TO GO…I HAVE TO LEAVE’…SHE STAMMERED OBVIOUSLY TORN BETWEEN DIFFERENT HUNGERS…IT WAS A ‘DOORKNOB’ CONVERSATION THAT LEFT THE TRUTH OF WHAT THEY MEANT TO ONE ANOTHER HANGING AS SHE WENT INTO ‘FLIGHT’…

POWER LOVE…MARSHA DANGLING IN HER DESIRE TO CONTROL THE ‘ATTENTION TENSION’ IN A SPOTLIGHT DANCE OF MEISM…A DANCE THAT CONSTANTLY SOUGHT ORBITAL ENTITIES TO HOLD IN HER WEB…A PRISM OR KALEIDESCOPE WEBBING OF ALTERING LIGHTS…FEELING TRAPPED IN A SPIDER WEB OF THE INNER UNREAL SHE LEARNS TO BECOME THE SPIDER IN PROJECTING THE WAYS AND WEBBINGS ON THE OTHERS…

THE UNCONSCIOUSNESS AS RUTHLESSNESS SEEKING TO OVERCOME THE TYRANNY…IT IS THE EMERGING AWARENESS OF SIMONE DE BEAUVOIR AS ‘ANGER OR REVOLT THAT DOES NOT BECOME PART OF THE MUSCLES AND FIBERS OF THE BODY REMAINS A FIGMENT OF THE IMAGINATION’…

THE EMPRESS RULES CONSUMING HIS LONELINESS FEEDING ON HIS QUEST TO BE RELEASED FROM THE WEBBINGS OF YESTERDAZE… HIS DAMAGED RHYTHMS OF CONTROL SERVE HER NEED TO LEVERAGE …SHE BAITS AND WAITS FOR THE OPPORTUNITY TO GET WHAT IS NEEDED AS SHE SEIZES HIS FLAWED MOMENT…SHE IS STILL IN A WARFARE OF YESTERDAZE AND IS STILL BUILDING HER INNER UNREAL…SHE IS THE ‘KISS OF THE SPIDERWOMAN’…

IT IS AN INNER QUEST FOR THE GREAT MATERNAL ROLE OF UNQUESTIONED ‘GENEROSITY’ AND KINDNESS THAT IS THE EPITOME OF POWER LOVE…TO HAVE, TO HOLD, TO CALL FORTH AND REPLENISH ALL WITHIN AND ALL AROUND…A FANTASY STRATEGY OF DESIRE WILLING TO BUILD A VISION OF THE SELF ON SHIFTING SANDS…SHIFTING SORROWS AND BRIEF RELIEFS IN A COMING AND GOING OF POWER LOVE…

SHE THRIVES AS THE ‘MISTRESS OF INDIRECTION’…SHE OWNS THE SPIDERWEBBING…THE KINWEBS OF THE ‘INNER UNREAL…

POWER LOVE

SHE IS SATURNALIA IN REVERIE AND THE HUNGERS OF SATURN EATING THE CHILDREN…RAGE INFERNO OF FURY CONSUMING AND BUYING TIME IN LIMITATIONS AND OBSTACLE COURSINGS…IT IS THE DEPTH OF POWER CONQUERS LOVE THAT MUST FIND LOVE OVERCOMES FEAR…

FLIGHT…SHE LEAVES UNABLE TO BE IN PRESENCE…A SEDUCTION OF GIVING AND TAKING AWAY AS CONSOLIDATION OF GAINS…THE LEVERAGINGS OF THE FORTRESSING OF THE INNER UNREAL…A MIRRORING OF HER CONTRADICTIONS AND SEARCH FOR BALANCE IN A FALSE AND CONFUSED OLD ORDERING…

SHE MIXES REACTIVITY IN WISHES OF ABANDON AND ABANDONMENT…SHE SIMPLY NEEDS LOVE GREATER THAN THE PAIN OF SO MUCH LOSS…LOST INNOCENCE AND THE GUILT OFA BETRAYAL OF THE SELF IN DOING WHAT WAS ‘DONE’ TO HER IN HER UNCONSCIOUSNESS…

SHE HOLDS THE SHAME AND GUILT OF THE GREAT BREAST OF THE GREAT MOTHER…THE SILENCE IN A ‘TAKING AWAY’ AND A ‘DENIAL’…THE MISSING NURTURANCE AND PROTECTION FROM SO LONG AGO…

‘NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF DENIAL’…

MARSHA GLARED… ‘YOU REALLY GO TOO FAR’…


‘I AM TRYING TO BE PATIENT WITH YOUR UNAVAILABILITY…TRYING TO UNDERSTAND YOUR NON- CONNECTION’

‘STOP LOOKING IN THE MIRROR AND LOOK AT ME…I HAVE TO GO NOW…IT IS ‘ECHO’ LOST IN HER ECHOES AND NARCISSUS MESMERIZED BY THE POOL REFLECTIONS…

HE IS ‘MERE MAN’ IN HER ECHOIC DRAMA…A SEED OF VALUE IN HER QUEST OF MATERNAL TOTALITY…SHE SEEKS TO COUNTER THE MATERNAL IN BEING MORE SO WHILE THWARTING AND CONSUMING THE PATERNAL ENERGIES…IT IS AKIN TO A FORM OF SATURNALIAN CANNIBALISM AS SHE EATS THE TENSIONS OF NON- CONNECTION…

‘DA DA AND MA MA’…A VALIDATION IN SERVICE TO THEIR EGOISM…TO PAY TRIBUTE TO THEIR ROLE DRAMAS OF STRIVING TO NEUTRALIZE A DEEP REALITY OF ‘NOT GOOD ENOUGH’…ALL IS IMAGE AND HOMAGE TO THEIR STATUS AS DEFINED IN A MATERIALISM OF DISPLAY AND ACCUMULATIONS …A LEVERAGING OF ENERGIES IN EXCHANGE FOR SOUL…

SOMETHING THAT IS ‘POTENTIALLY REAL’ GNAWS…THE APPETITE IS TUNED TO A NEW WAY…A GROWTH TO SELF RELIANCE AND RESOLVE BEYOND PACIFIERS OF CONVENIENCE AND FUELS OF THE FAMILIAR…
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TRUMP 4…THE EMPEROR…THE FORCE OF GOVERNANCE THROUGH TWO CONTRASTING SYMBOLS…THE RAM, WHICH, WHEN WILD, IS SOLITARY AND COURAGEOUS, AND THE LAMB, WHICH IS DOCILE AND COWARDLY, AND IS IN FACT, THE RAM TAMED BY AUTHORITY…IT IS A SULFUR ALCHEMY OF FIRE IN THE NATURE OF GOLD…THE FATHER… ENERGY… ORDER… CONTROL…WAR…CONQUEST…AMBITION…FEARLESSNESS…STRENGTH…FULL OF KNOWLEDGE AND DEEPLY CARING…WEARING A SUIT OF ARMOR UNDER HIS ROBES READY IN A MOMENT TO DEFEND HIS KINGDOM AND PEOPLE…A SPIRITUAL MANAGEMENT OF THE INSTINCTS…HEAD OVER HEART…A TEMPERING IN RECOGNIZING TENDENCIES TOWARD ‘BULLYING’ AND ‘TYRANNY’…SEEING ‘RASHNESS’ OR ‘WILLFULNESS’ IN IMMATURE BEHAVIORS…THE BEST OFFENSE IS A GOOD DEFENSE… STIMULATION OF A DYNAMIC CURRENT… CREATIVE FORCE OF AUTHORITY…SELF CONTROL AND THE FORCE OF RED IRON…


A ‘KNIGHT FOR THE DAZE’…

AH…HE DREAMS OF POWER LOVE IN HIS REFLECTION IN THE WATERS…THE WAVES FEEL AS IF THE CAUSE IS JUST AND HE WILL WIN TOTAL LOVE AND ADMIRATION…IT IS HER PLEASURE IN HER OWN ECHOES THAT DECEIVES HIM…SHE HOLDS THE RESONANCE IN TRANCES AND ABSORPTIONS CONTAINING AND CONTROLLING…A WAITING AND AWAITING IN WILES OF EXCITEMENT AS TO IMPRESS UPON HIM WHAT IS DESIRED AS BEING IMPRESSED UPON…

THE PATH OUT IS THE PATH AWAY…FOR RELEASE AND SELF RESPECT IS IN THE DIGNITY OF NON NEGOTIATION AS HE MOVES TO A GENITAL PRIMACY THAT IS NOT IN THE MIRRORS AND ECHOES…

HOWEVER, THERE IS INSPIRATION IN EVERY BREATH AND EVERY STEP…A CALLING OF HEART IN TRUTH OF AWAKENINGS…A DIFFICULT TRAIL OF OBSTACLES AND BLOCKAGE THAT ARE DANGERS AND OPPORTUNITIES…

THERE ARE SO MANY WRONG PATHS… ‘SHESHADOWS’ OF THE MOTHER/DAUGHTER ENMESHMENTS…WEBBINGS OF NEEDS SURFACING AS THE ‘BABY STEPS’ OF HUNGERS… DESIRES THAT ARE CUED AND CLUED FOSTERING DEPENDENCY…FEELING LOVED AND THEN GRADUALLY HAVING IT BE TAKEN AWAY…THE BREAST…THE SUCKING…THE CLOSENESS AS THE LITTLE ONE HAS TO FIND ITS OWN WAY…

ABANDONMENT STARVING FOR SECURITY IN THE REALIZATION OF CONFIDENTLY BEING IN ‘ABANDON’…

SO MUCH IS IN THE PROJECTION OF ‘YOU GO TO FAR’ AS THE EXCESS OF HEART POWER….WHERE IS THE DANCE OF UNVEILING IN THE WILLING…

GENITAL PRIMACY…THE UNKNOWN…THE COURAGE OF GOING BEYOND …THE POTENCY OF MALE URGENCY AND PENETRATION…THE VICTORY OF AIR TO THE LETTER ‘A’ AND VENUS TO THE LETTER ‘L’ AS THE WOMAN SATISFIED...

DIRECTION…RHYTHMS OF MEETING A NEW FRONTIER OR FEELING HER RELEASE IN A WOMANLY PRESENCE OF NEW ‘FRONT’-‘TEARS’…JOYFUL KNOWING OF BECOMING AS SHE IS IN HER POTENCY OF VENUS…CREATIVE BEING…

‘YOU ARE MY KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR…YOU SOMETIMES GO TOO FAR YET IT IS THE ONLY WAY TO OVERCOME THE SELF THAT I AM WALLED BEHIND…IT IS THE PRESSURE OF LETTING GO OF MY SPLIT OFF… MY DISSOCIATED SOUL IN CONFLICT WITH SO MANY HABITS AND INHIBITIONS’…

‘MY DEAR… IT IS SOME KIND OF TRUST IN THE MIDST OF THE DAZE…A KNOWING THAT IT IS WHERE YOU WANT TO GO AND AFFIRMING THAT YOU GO THERE AS YOU ARE IN ‘SAFE INTIMACY’ WITH ME…

SPONTANEITY IN DRIVING INTO WISHING…THE ‘SURPRISE’ OF POTENTIAL IN THE UNKNOWN…KNOWING ONE CANNOT REPAIR CONTROL AND KNOWING THE RESOLVE OF DISCARDING EXCESS BAGGAGE… ‘THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO’… THAT NOT HAVING CONTROL IS THE POTENTIAL OF SURPRISE…

IT IS THE HEROIC OPPORTUNITY OF THE REAL TO BREATHE THROUGH ‘DAZE WAZE’…TO MEET WILL IN A DRIVE OF BEING… TIME IS ONLY OF PRESENCE AS OVERCOMING THE SELF…THE HURT AND TRAUMATIZED SELF…THE FEARFUL AND VICTIMIZED SELF…THE PRIDEFUL AND VAIN SELF OF THE BARBICAN SHAME FORTRESSING …

ANY SENSE OF BLINKING AND FLICKING IS THE DISTRACTION OF AN ECHO THAT FACILITATES CONTROL OF A CERTAIN SPACE… IT IS FEAR ACTIVATED AND A FANTASY DISCONNECT AS SHE SEEKS TO BE THE CENTER OF ATTENTION EVEN IF IT IS THE ‘INNER UNREAL’ OR HER OWN SELF ABSORPTION…

IT IS THE POWER LOVE OF THE PRINCE THAT HELPS HER RELEASE…KEYS HER AUTONOMY IN MANEUVERING AROUND AND NEUTRALIZING THE INTERIORITY POWER STRUGGLE OF THE MATERNAL…SHE FINDS HER OWN TRUTH IN A SELF SUSTENANCE UNVEILING…THE ENCOUNTERS OF DUALITY ECHOES…THE SHARED LAPS OF ‘SHESHADOWS’ OUT OF MOTHER/ DAUGHTER/ SISTER/ GIRLFRIEND HARMONIES OF HORIZONTAL FORTRESSINGS… THE OVERLAPS OF ORBITAL EROS SENSUALIZATIONS FERMENTING INTENSITIES OF PERCOLATION OF BIOCHEMISTRIES…THE OVERLAPS OF HIP TO HIP VIBRATORY RESONANCE AND SHARED SENSUALIZATION…THE SAFENESS IN NUMBERS IN A HERD OR HEARD SECURITY OF SOUNDNESS…
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TRUMP 5…THE HIEROPHANT… THE LINKAGES OF THE INDIVIDUAL AND TRADITION… TAURUS THE BULL AND ITS INDIAN EQUIVALENT, THE ELEPHANT…MAN’S SEARCH FOR MEANING AS THE HIEROPHANT ONLY MOVES AS DIVINE WISDOM UNITING THE GRAND MYSTERY OF THE MICROCOSM AND MACROCOSM EVERY 2000 YEARS…WOMAN MOVES ARMED AND MILITANT INTO THE NEW AEON OF THE CHILD HORUS…IT IS WORSHIP… DOCTRINE… TRADITION… CEREMONY…A TIME TO HEED GUIDANCE OF A SPIRITUAL LEADER…HELP FROM SUPERIORS…GOODNESS OF HEART…PATIENCE, PERSISTENCE AND STUBBORN STRENGTH…PEACE AND INSPIRATION…TEMPERED BY EXCESSIVE REBELLIOUSNESS, TRUE BELIEVERS, OBSESSIVE-COMPULSIVE BEHAVIORS OR PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE WAYS…DOGMATISM…A TIME TO BE REAL AND EXPRESS ONE’S FEELINGS TEMPERED BY THE RESPECT FOR THE TRADITIONAL…IT IS THE HUMBLENESS OF PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT INTERSECTING WITH THE MODESTY OF EROS…THE MASK WE WEAR IN SOCIAL INTERACTIONS… CONNECTING ‘THAT WHICH IS ABOVE TO THAT WHICH IS BELOW’…THE CHANNEL FOR SPIRITUAL INSTRUCTION… THE DETERMINATION OF WHAT IS RIGHT AND WRONG…

‘WAKE UP, IT IS TIME TO GO TO MASS…YOU DON’T WANT TO BE LATE’…AGAIN…

A GREAT CIRCULARITY RHYTHM DEFINED OUR ENCOUNTERS…I MOVED INTO MANY ALTERED STATES IN MEETING THE DEEP TIMES OF OPPORTUNE KINETICS…A PARALLELISM OF DIONYSIAN ‘SUSTAINED INVERSION’ STRENGTHENING CREATIVE CAPACITY AND INDIVIDUATION AT DEEPER RESONANCE OF YIN AND YANG…

MOST OF THE TIME SHE CONTROLLED THE ENCOUNTER GUIDING ME IN KINDNESS AND NURTURANCE FOR HER PSYCHE’ INDEBTEDNESS…IT WAS AS IF I WAS AN ALLY PROVIDING THE SUSTENANCE THAT WAS NOT PROVIDED IN HER ENTIRE LIFE…I BECAME A DEEPER YANG OF MY REAL SELF EVEN AS I MOVED INTO A PARALLELISM OF YIN ENCOUNTER RHYTHM…

MARSHA RARELY HAD RISEN TO THE SURFACE…MOST OF THE TIME SHE LIVED IN THE UNDERRHYTHMS…THE UNDERCURRENTS OF THE NEVERENDING HIP WARS…SHE HAD LEARNED MASTERY OF LEVERAGING AND CRAVED INTENSITY IN THE DEPTHS OF HER SHESHADOWS…HER ‘INNER UNREAL’ THAT PROTECTED HER…

PRESENCE WAS NOT IMPORTANT IN HER POWER QUEST OF CONTROLLING THE THREATS TO THE LITTLE GIRL ON THE ‘OTHER SIDE’ OF THE FORTRESSED INNER UNREAL’…POWER WAS ABOUT OVERCOMING POWERLESSNESS…SO WHATEVER WAS WHAT SHE NEEDED AND ANY EXCHANGE TO FEEL POWER WAS FINE WITH HER...

IT IS ONLY RECENTLY THAT A SUBTLE SHIFT SEEMED TO BE OCCURRING…IT IS IN HER CONSCIOUSNESS OF WANTING TO SEPARATE HERSELF FROM THE ENTANGLEMENTS OF ‘MASS MOTIONS’…

MARSHA HAD SPENT MOST OF HER LIFE WILLING TO DO MANY THINGS IN MANY WAYS KNOWING THE VALUE OF POWER TO CONQUER AND CONTROL…LOVE BEING A MEANS TO POWER AS SHE KNEW THAT POWER DID INDEED CONQUER LOVE…POWER SEEMED MORE IMPORTANT THAN LOVE…

SHE KNEW THE ‘THWARTING OF MALE ENERGIES…HER NEEDS WERE MORE IMPORTANT YET THE SKEWS AND IMBALANCES OF TOO MUCH OF A ‘GOOD THING’ LED TO A RECOGNITION THAT HER ANGST AND LOSS WERE STILL AS DEEP AS EVER…THE QUEST FOR POWER WAS OBVIOUSLY NOT A PATH OF HAPPINESS…IT WAS MERELY A NEW STARTING POINT…AND THE FACT OF KNOWING THAT 'SEXUAL ORGASM' MIGHT NOT BE THE GOAL OF ALL OF HER MANIFESTATIONS...

SHE WAS WOUNDED AND LOVE STARVED AND KNEW HOW TO CONSUME MEN…IT WAS HER PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE SHESHADOWS THAT LIVED IN A HYPERVIGILANCE IN WATCHING HIS EVERY MOVE…HER UNCONSCIOUS WEBBING OF PSYCHE AND PHYSICAL BRACINGS AND EMOTIONAL PROJECTIONS THAT MAINTAINED AN ORDERING OF HER SHESHADOWS…HER REALM OF ‘HUNGRY GHOSTS’ IN AN ‘INNER UNREAL’…

SHESHADOWS…THE ORDERING OF DOING WHAT ONE HAS TO DO TO STAY IN PLACE IN THE MASS MOTIONS AND ORDERING…FACING ONESELF IN ENLIGHTENMENT AND LIGHTING INNER MERIDIANS OF NEW RHYTHMS WAS UNKNOWN AS SHE BRACED AGAINST UNPREDICTABLE AND SURPRISE EMOTIONS…THE ROLES OF POWER WERE MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE VULNERABILITY OF LETTING GO… HER CENTER OF BALANCE IN A TEMPERAMENT OF FILTRATION GETTING FUELS TO SUSTAIN HER INERTIA OF DREAMS…
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TRUMP 6…THE LOVERS…CHOICE IN THE PROCREATION PROCESS OF DIVISION…PARTNERING IN HEART TO HEART HEALING…AN ORDEAL OF GOING FORWARD IN THE POWER OF LOVE…OPENNESS TO INSPIRATION…TO TEMPER BY SENSING SHALLOWNESS AND SUPERFICIALITY…LOVE EM AND LEAVE EM MODES OF CONTROLLING ‘OUTCOMES’…TO WORK THROUGH CONFLICTING INTERESTS…TO DISSOLVE REGRETS AND WARINESS OF COMMITMENTS…INSPIRATION IN THE JOINING OF THE LOWER AND HIGHER SELF…LIBERATION…

THE REPRESENTATION OF THE ANGEL OF FIRE IN CUPID’S WAY OF BEING READY TO STRIKE A WOMAN /MAN WITH THE ARROW FROM A BOW……

POWER LOVE AND LOVE POWER

MARSHA CARESSED HIS SHOULDERS DOWN HIS ARMS AND ONTO HIS BACK…SHE GENTLY TOUCHED HIS LOWER SPINE AND FELT THE SUDDEN CHANGE IN HIS BREATHING…

AH…KUNDALINI AWAKENS…

THEY LAUGH AND SHIFT POSITIONS LEANING MORE INTO ONE ANOTHER…A HARMONY OF MOVING IN SIMULTANEITY…LOOKING FOR SYNCHRONICITY…


TRUMP 7…THE CHARIOT…TO KNOW THE BULL, THE LION, THE EAGLE, THE MAN IN ORDER TO CARRY THE HOLY GRAIL, IN THE CENTER OF WHICH IS THE RADIANT BLOOD, SYMBOLISING THE PRESENCE OF LIGHT IN DARKNESS…IT IS THE PROCESS OF BALANCING PROGRESS THROUGH BALANCING OPPOSING FORCES…VICTORY RESULTING FROM PERSONAL EFFORT…DETERMINATION…CENTEREDNESS…TRIUMPH OVER OBSTACLES…RESOLVE FLOWING EVENTS AND DECISIONS IN ONE’S FAVOR…SELF-ASSERTION…TEMPERED BY SENSES OF IMBALANCES OR FAILURE TO INTEGRATE CONFLICTING EMOTIONS…WASTEFULNESS…SCATTERED ENERGIES…RECKLESS ACTIONS…A LUST IN DESTRUCTIVENESS…MOVEMENT THROUGH ALL PLANES OF EXISTENCE…

HE TRANSFORMS SEXUAL ENERGY INTO A VEHICLE THAT CARRIES HIM TOWARD HIS SPIRITUAL GOAL,THE SPIRITUAL SUN…THE CHARIOT IS CONFIDENCE, PREPAREDNESS, TRAVEL, AND VICTORY IN PULLING THE OPPOSING FORCES… ……………………………………………………………

‘COMING FORWARD’…




‘WOW…THAT WAS VERY POTENT…YOU WERE DETERMINED TO COMPLETE YOUR NEEDS…YOU WENT INTO YOUR REAL HUNGER FOR INTIMACY…UNPACIFIED BY ANAESTHETIZED MEANS’…

‘I FELT SAFE AND PRESENT…THERE WERE NO ALARMS OR SIRENS OF SEDUCTION WAYS…I GUESS THAT NOTHING ELSE MATTERED’…
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TRUMP 8…ADJUSTMENT…MORAL FORCE…THE MANIFESTATION OF MAYA…SUSPENSION OF ACTION PENDING DECISION…THE ONE FULFILLING THE OTHER THROUGH A PROCESS OF CONTRADICTION… ALL THE POSSIBILITIES OF SENSATION… HARNESSING THE BEAST WITHIN …PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE IN THE CALM KNOWING OF ONE’S INSTINCTS AND SEXUAL APPETITES…TO COME TO TERMS WITH ONE’S SHADOW…TO TEMPER TENDENCIES OF SOFT OR HARD ADDICTIONS…TO RECOGNIZE ILLNESS OR DEPENDENCY…

SELF MASTERY THROUGH LOVE…STRENGTH OF SPIRIT…
RECOIL AND DISTANCING

WITHDRAWAL AND TAKING LOVE AWAY IN A MOVE OF CONTROLLING POWER LOVE…SOMETHING ACTIVATED IN THE CLUTCHES OF ‘HUNGRY GHOSTS’…THE FEAR AND FRIGHT TAKING OVER AS SHESHADOWS RULE…IT IS FEAR GREATER THAN LOVE…

HE WONDERED WHETHER IT WAS ‘WORTH THE EFFORT’…A CLEAVAGE OF MISTRUST OPENED AS SHE DISPLAYED THE WITHHELD AND WITHDRAWN FOR HER WOUND…HE COULD NOT WALK ON EGGS TO KEEP HER FROM FEELING HER PAIN…SHE HAD TO BE ABLE TO LOVE AS IS IN REAL TIME…THE ANGER AT NOT BEING THE ONLY PRINCESS..THE VIRGIN…THE ‘DADDY’S GIRL…THE ONLY ONE RULED HER …SHE WAS BLIND TO HER OWN MANIPULATIONS….SHE WALKED ON EGGS DIPLOMATICALLY FOR THE OTHERS TO CONTROL THE LEVEL OF CONFLICT…THE MEDIATRIX IN CONFLICT RESOLUTION…

IT WAS AS HE KNEW…SEE WHAT THE OTHER IS DOING AND YOU WILL UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY NEED DONE FOR THEMSELVES…IT IS THE PLANE OF EXCHANGE AND ENCOUNTER…THE PLATEAU OF NEW GROWTH AS LOVE IS GREATER THAN FEAR…IT IS ADAPTABILITY IN KNOWING SUFFERING …

HE KNEW THAT HIS ‘IRE HAD TO BE STRONGER THAN HER AGONY’ IF HE WAS GOING TO MEET IN ‘AIR TO THE LETTER ‘A’ AND VENUS TO THE LETTER ‘L’…THE PROCESS OF THE WOMAN FILLED WITH CREATIVE ENERGIES AND THE WOMAN SATISFIED…




TRUMP 9…THE HERMIT…DIVINE INSPIRATION…WITHDRAWING FROM SOCIETY…PRUDENT REFLECTION…ILLUMINATION FROM WITHIN…SOLITUDE AND THE SOUNDS OF SILENCE…SUSPENSION OF ACTION PENDING DECISION…TEMPERING WISDOM AS FEARS OF INTIMACY OR EXCESSIVE SELF-ABSORPTION OR ESCAPISM…ALOOFNESS…DISREGARDING WISE COUNSEL…TOO MUCH ISOLATION CAUSING ONE TO BE IN STATES OF LONELINESS AND REJECTION…

THE HERMIT MAY BE THE PIONEER WHO LIGHTS THE WAY FOR OTHERS…

TRUMP 10…THE WHEEL OF FORTUNE…THE CELESTIAL PHENOMENA OF CONTINUAL CHANGE…GOOD LUCK…THE UPS AND DOWNS OF FORTUNE…THE END OF ONE PHASE AND THE BEGINNING OF ANOTHER…A NEW OPPORTUNITY…A LUCKY BREAK… DESTINY…TEMPERING BY AWARENESS OF POSSIBLE ‘UNEXPECTED SETBACKS’…RESISTANCE TO BENEFICIAL CHANGE…STAGNATION…FEELING OUT OF SYNC…STUCK IN A RUT…





TRUMP 11…LUST…JUSTICE

…THE WOMAN SATISFIED AS A FLOW OF EQUILIBRIUM…A PROPER CHANNELLING OF LIBIDO…RESTORATION OF BALANCE…A SENSE OF PROPORTION…ISSUES OF FAIRNESS ESPECIALLY UNDERSTANDING THE POINT OF VIEW OF AN OTHER…USE OF MAGICAL POWER…JOY IN STRENGTH EXERCISED…THE FEMININE RIDES THE LION WITH 7 HEADS UNITING THE PASSIONS THROUGH THE CUP AFLAME WITH LOVE AND DEATH BEING ABSORBED INTO THE MIRAGE OF THE HOLY GRAIL…FAITH IN ONE’S OWN ABILITIES… TEMPERED CONSCIOUSNESS OF KNOWING SELF-DEFEATING BEHAVIORS…GIVING IN TO FEARS…LACK OF SELF DISCIPLINE…VANITY…FALSE SENSE OF POWER… FATIGUE… GUILT…DEPRESSION…LACK OF CONVICTION…




TRUMP 12…THE HANGED MAN OR ‘DYING GOD’…SUSPENSION…A NEW PERSPECTIVE…A REVERSAL…DARING TO BE DIFFERENT… BREAKING WITH THE PAST…AN APPARENT STANDSTILL…A CROSSROADS…TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE…BEING ‘CAUGHT’ BETWEEN THE OLD AND THE NEW…TO LET GO AND MAKE A SACRIFICE FOR THE GREATER GOOD…TIME SPENT IN CONTEMPLATION, MYSTICISM, REST, RELAXATION AND REFLECTION…THE ELEMENT OF WATER AS AN ELEMENT OF ILLUSION…REDEMPTION THROUGH SACRIFICE…THROUGH SUFFERING…TEMPERED BY BEING STUCK IN THE STATUS QUO…DENIAL OF THE REAL WITHIN…SOUL MURDER AND LACK OF SPIRITUAL ATTUNEMENT…RELUCTANCE TO COMMIT ONESELF TO A WORTHWHILE GOAL…

THE ORDEAL OF ATTITUDE AND PERCEPTION…TO SEEK TO ATTAIN ONE’S GOAL THROUGH THE CROSSROADS OF THE SELF AS THE HANGING SUFFERING LIKE CHRIST IS A PASSAGE OF INITIATION INTO THE NEXT WORLD…A HALO ENCOUNTER OF INNER CONTRACTIVENESS



TRUMP 13…DEATH…TRANSFORMATION IN A VOLUNTARY OR INVOLUNTARY WAY, PERHAPS SUDDEN AND UNEXPECTED…THE SCORPION REPRESENTING PRIMITIVE ENERGY ALWAYS READY TO COMMIT SUICIDE WHEN HEAVILY BESET, BUT PREPARED TO GO THROUGH ANY TRANSFORMATION WHICH WILL PERMIT ITS EXISTENCE IN A DIFFERENT FORM…THE SWEEP OF A SCYTHE CALLING INTO BEING ‘BUBBLES’ OF NEW LIFE…DESTRUCTION WHICH IS ILLUSION FROM A HIGHER PERSPECTIVE…THE DAWNING OF A NEW ERA… LIBERATION…REBIRTH…RENEWAL…INEVITABLE ENDINGS…GRIEVING AND RELEASING…SHEDDING…A MOMENTOUS ALTERATION IN LIFE STRUCTURE… LEAVING…TO LET GO OF OLD UNPRODUCTIVE WAYS…THE EAGLE RISING ABOVE SOLID MATTER…RESISTANCE TO CHANGES AS TEMPERED BY INERTIA…IMMOBILITY…FEAR OF CHANGE…BEING IN LIMBO…DECAY…FEAR OF TAKING THE BULL BY THE HORNS…

ALL THINGS END AND ALL CYCLES BECOME A RENEWAL OF NEW CYCLES…

TRUMP 14…TEMPERANCE OR ART…THE RIGHT LEADING OF THE NEW SUBSTANCES INTO THE PATH OF THE TRUE WILL[RECTIFICANDO]…THE WAY OF ESCAPE…ACTION BASED ON ACCURATE CALCULATION… ECONOMY AND REALIZATION…SUCCESS AFTER ELABORATE MANEUVERS…EVERYTHING IN MODERATION…TEMPERED BY TENDENCIES TO PIG OUT OR UNBRIDLED PASSIONS AND EXCESSESS…COMPULSIVENESS AND UNWILLINGNESS TO CURB APPETITES… OVERINDULGENCE…

THE SENSE OF TIMING, CONNECTEDNESS, BALANCE, BEAUTY, AND HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS…

TRUMP 15…THE DEVIL…BONDAGE…FINDING IT HARD TO LET GO…TIES THAT BIND…FEELING STUCK IN A CONFINING RELATIONSHIP…CAUGHT IN A VICE OF ADDICTIONS OR ONE’S OWN MAKING…THE DEVIL HATH POWER TO ASSUME A PLEASING SHAPE[SHAKESPEARE]…TIME TO FACE FEARS AND INHIBITIONS…WHY DOES ONE BELIEVE ONE’S FATE IS TO SUFFER?…FEARFULNESS AND NEGATIVE THINKING…OBSESSIONS OF POWER, SEX, MONEY…TEMPERED VISION…ABSOLUTE POWER CORRUPTS ABSOLUTELY…TO SEEK TO BREAK FREE OF SUFFOCATING AND TOXIC WAYS…TO DISCARD BURDENSOME BAGGAGE…TO LET GO OF USING PEOPLE OR POWER FOR SELFISH POSSESSIVENESS…

THE SENSE OF IMPRISONMENT, ADDICTION, SELFISHNESS, AND THE BAD AND THE UGLY…ADAM AND EVE CHAINED TO WHAT ARE THEIR BASE DESIRES…


TRUMP 16…THE TOWER…THE BLASTED TOWER OR THE HOUSE OF GOD…A COLLAPSE OF A STRUCTURE… A ‘BOLT FROM THE BLUE’ …SHOCK … HAVOC…A CRISIS POINT…STRUCTURAL FLAWS…A JOLTING INSIGHT…DANGER, RUIN, SUDDEN DEATH…ESCAPE FROM PRISON AND ALL IT IMPLIES…THE DESTRUCTION OF THE OLD AEON BY LIGHTNING, FLAMES AND THE ENGINES OF WAR…THE PERFECTION OF ANNIHILATION FROM THE PRISON OF ORGANISED LIFE…

‘PE’ AS ‘MOUTH’ IN ‘THE WILL TO LIVE’ [FEMININE] AND ‘THE WILL TO DIE’[MASCULINE]…AMBITION AND COURAGE…THE DEATH OF AN ILLUSION…UNSOUND STRUCTURES WILL COME TUMBLING DOWN…TEMPERED BY ‘TIME TO PICK UP THE PIECES AND START ANEW’…A DISRUPTIVE INFLUENCE IS COMING TO AN END…

TRANSFORMATION, THE SHATTERING OF ILLUSION, SUDDEN CHANGE…THE FIRE WIND AND RAIN ARE CLEARING THROUGH THE DARKNESS…ONE MAY BE DISTURBED IN AN ABRUPT LOSS OF POSITION OR BELIEF…

TRUMP 17…THE STAR…CLARITY OF VISION…HOPE…THE FORCE OF ENERGY IN A SPIRAL…A MANIFESTATION OF THE SURROUNDING SPACE OF HEAVEN…SPIRITUAL INSIGHT…AS ABOVE,SO BELOW…A DESIRED RESPONSE OR RESULT IS ON THE WAY…A GUIDE IS ON THE WAY…TEMPERED BY AN AWARENESS OF THE DIFFICULTY OF ACCEPTING ASSISTANCE…ARE YOU BLIND TO THE ACRES OF DIAMONDS ALL AROUND…

IT IS FORGIVENESS AFTER AN ARGUMENT…OR CLARITY AFTER THE DISILLUSIONMENT OF THE DEATH OR DEVIL TRANSITIONS OR PASSAGES…A TIME TO ASCEND TO A HIGHER STATE…

TRUMP 18…THE MOON…TO PASS THROUGH THE STATES OF IMPURE HORROR, HIDDEN DARKNESS BEFORE LIGHT CAN BE REBORN…IT IS THE POTENTIAL FOR DIGNITY BEYOND ILLUSION AND THE DECEPTIONS OF DEEP INSTINCTUAL FORCES…DREAMINESS AND RECEPTIVITY…OCEANIC CREATIVE POTENTIAL OF THE UNCONSCIOUSNESS…SEEING PAST THE ILLUSIONS AND RESEMBLANCES THAT BECOME FUEL FOR THE CONSUMPTION OF JACKALS… THINGS ARE NOT WHAT THEY SEEM…BEING ON THE BRINK OF AN IMPORTANT CHANGE…AN AWARENESS OF THE STREAM OF BLOOD[A PATH OF SERUM] THAT FLOWS BETWEEN TWO BARREN MOUNTAINS…THE SACRED BEETLE BEARS THE SUN THROUGH THE DARKNESS OF NIGHT…STATES OF MEDIUMSHIP…THE POWER OF THE MATERNAL…THE GEMSTONE MOONBEAM OF THE GREAT CREATIVE AND PROTECTIVE MOTHER…TEMPERED BY SENSITIVITY TO LUNACY AND DRAWS OF THE SHADOW WORLD…TO GUARD AGAINST THE DANGERS OF CLANDESTINE THREATS…TO RECOGNIZE MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL IMBALANCES… LIARS…SUBVERSIVES…DECEIVERS…

IT IS NOT YET TIME TO ACT BUT THE SEEDS OF ACTION ARE BEING PLANTED…WE HAVE CROSSED OVER THE WATERS BUT OUR EXPERIENCES HAVE COMPELLED US TO BE IN A CRUSTACEAN STATE CLIMBING FROM THE WATER…A PRIMITIVE CONSCIOUSNESS…

TRUMP 19…THE SUN…PLEASURE BEYOND SIN AND DEATH AS THE COMPLETE EMANCIPATION OF THE HUMAN RACE… TRIUMPH… GLORY… FRANKNESS… SHAMELESSNESS…GAIN…THE DAWNING OF A NEW DAY…A RAY OF SUNSHINE ENTERS ONE’S LIFE… SPONTANEITY… ILLUMINATION… CLEAR THINKING… ACCLAIM…TEMPERED AS CONCERN WITH APPEARANCES AND VANITY…UNEARNED RECOGNITION AS FALSENESS OF PROMINENCE… SUPERFICIALITY… NARCISSISM AND ONLY PARTIAL SUCCESS…

THE VICTORY OF THE CHILD EMERGING FROM THE PRIMITIVE…TO SHARE HIS ENTHUSIASM WITH THE WORLD…

TRUMP 20…JUDGEMENT…THE AEON…THE ANGEL…THE LAST JUDGEMENT…THE DEFINITIVE STEP…A NEW CURRENT FOR THE FUTURE…NUIT AND HADIT AS UNLIMITED POSSIBILITY AND ETERNAL ENERGY MOVING WITH THE ESSENCE OF THE NEW AEON…A MOMENTOUS CHOICE…RESURRECTION…THE PHOENIX RISING FROM THE ASHES…AS YOU SOW, SO SHALL YOU REAP…SELF APPRAISAL AND DEVELOPMENT BECOMING AND HEALING…TEMPERED BY PROCRASTINATION OR AN UNWELCOME TRANSITION… AVOIDING A NECESSARY DECISION… INDECISION… IGNORING A CALL TO ACTION…

HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS AS THE RISE OF THE GOOD GENIUS…

TRUMP 21…THE WORLD…THE UNIVERSE…THE ESSENCE OF THE QUESTION ITSELF…CRYSTALLIZATION OF THE WHOLE MATTER INVOLVED…THE CIRCULARITY COMPLETION OF THE FOOL AND THE UNIVERSE…THE SLOW PROCESS OF FERTILITY AS AN EQUILIBRIUM BALANCING CHANGE AND STABILITY… CULMINATION…THE END OF A PHASE AND THE START OF SOMETHING NEW…REACHING ONE’S GOAL…ALL’S WELL THAT ENDS WELL…WINNERS…ACHIEVERS…TEMPERED BY INCOMPLETION…NOT FINISHING WHAT YOU STARTED… UNWILLING TO FACE THE FUTURE…POOPING OUT…TO QUIT A TASK AND NOT BRING IT TO COMPLETION…A JACK OF ALL TRADES AND A MASTER OF NONE…

THE PURIFIED SOUL IS ONE WITH THE SOUL OF THE UNIVERSE…THE WORLD SOUL…

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THE MINOR ARCANA…THE FOUR SUITS OF TEN MEANINGS…FEELINGS…SITUATIONS… CHARACTERISTICS…A SEQUENCE OF NUMERICAL MEANINGS…









AIR= SWORDS



EARTH=PENTACLES



FIRE=WANDS



WATER=CUPS









THE 10 SEQUENCE WITHIN EACH SUIT…









1.THE SEED OR ROOT



2.BALANCING DUALITY;PURE MANIFESTATION



3.BLENDING,CREATION, FERTILIZATION



4.ESTABLISHING FOUNDATIONS



5.UPSETTING THE PRIOR STABILITY



6.REESTABLISHING HARMONY



7.LOSS OF STABILITY BROUGHT ON BY NEW AWARENESS



8.MASTERY AND AUTONOMY; ACKNOWLEDGEMENT OF ERROR



9.COMPLETION,CRYSTALLIZATION, FULFILLMENT, PEAK EXPERIENCE



10.ENDING,FINAL TRANSFORMATION, PREPARING FOR A NEW CYCLE









WANDS…BATONS,RODS,STAFFS,STAVES,CLUBS, SCEPTERS









PENTACLES…COINS,DISKS,DIAMONDS









SWORDS…SPADES,EPEES









CUPS…COUPES, HEARTS









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ACES…ONES…SEEDS…CREATIVE BEGINNINGS… UPSURGE OF ENERGY…INITIATION…NEW VITALITY… INDEPENDENT DECISIONS TO GO FORWARD…RAW ENERGY…EARLY STAGE OF ACTION…









ACE OF WANDS… FIRE…ENTHUSIASM…FERTILIZATION… PASSION…PUTTING AMBITIONS INTO ACTION…FRESH IDEAS…A BEGINNING OR A RENEWAL…FEELING BEYOND EMOTION AS A FIERY DECISIVE FUNCTION THAT DETERMINES WHAT IS GOOD AND WHAT IS BAD…FEELING MOTIVATES ONE TO ACTION…THE FIERY BATON OR WAND WITH THE GROWTH OF LEAVES ON IT…









ACE OF PENTACLES… A WINDFALL…A HELPING HAND…A FIRM FOUNDATION IN THE BIRTH OF PROSPERITY…TO LEARN TO HAVE THE POSITIVE ASPECTS OF A MIDAS TOUCH…THE BEGINNING OF FISCAL IMPROVEMENT… ‘PENTACLES’ AS ‘TALISMANS’ DOING THE EARTH AND SENSATION FUNCTION…SENSATION IS A TECHNICAL FUNCTION THAT DETERMINES HOW PHYSICAL SYSTEMS WORK AND HOW THEY CAN BE IMPROVED…THE ACE IS THE NEW PATH OF MONEY, MATERIAL,HEALTH, BODY OR OTHER PHYSICAL MATTERS…THE FERTILE LANDSCAPE…THE COIN IS THE ORIGINAL SYMBOL OF THIS SUIT…









ACE OF SWORDS… THE POWER OF INTELLECT…STRENGTH IN ADVERSITY…THE FORCE OF THE ELEMENT AIR…SOMETHING GOOD EMERGING FROM EVIL CIRCUMSTANCES…THE PEN IS MIGHTIER THAN THE SWORD…A DETERMINATION TO OVERCOME OBSTACLES AND ADVERSITY…A DISCIPLINE…WILLPOWER…THE SUIT OF AIR AND THE THINKING FUNCTION…THE CROWN ON TOP OF THE SWORD IS DECORATED WITH A VINE BEARING BERRIES AND AN EVERGREEN, SYMBOLS OF PROSPERITY AND LASTING ACHIEVEMENT…THE SWORD IS POSITIVE AND SINGULARLY FOCUSED AS A NEW IDEA…









ACE OF CUPS…THE STIRRINGS OF THE HEART…NEW LOVE…COMPASSION…EMOTIONAL RENEWAL OR GROWTH…POETRY…JOY…THE FORCE OF WATER…THE START OF A CREATIVE ENDEAVOR…TO BE BLESSED WITH AN UPSURGE OF FERTILITY AND NEW LOVE…THE FOUNTAIN IN THE CENTER FROM WHICH THE FOUR RIVERS OF DIRECTION FLOW…THE INTUITIVE CONSCIOUSNESS OF THE FEMININE IN AN INVESTIGATION OF THE ‘UNCONSCIOUS’…WE ARE NOT THE AUTHOR OF OUR ‘TRUE DESIRE’…THE SEED IS PLANTED IN US BY THE DIVINE, A SEED THAT NEEDS TO BE NURTURED AND ALLOWED TO GROW…









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TWOS…DUALITY…BALANCE…THE NEED TO RECONCILE OPPOSITES…SEE-SAW CONFLICTS…DILEMMAS OF THE NEED TO MAKE CHOICES…A FORK IN THE ROAD…A TIME TO SENSE THE PERIOD REQUIRED FOR GERMINATION… A TIME OF NURSING THE ‘TAKING HOLD’ OF THE SEEDS…PATIENCE…DIPLOMACY…CREATIVITY NOT YET FULFILLED…









TWO OF WANDS… OPPORTUNITY…A PERIOD OF WAITING…THE NEED TO WAIT TO SEE HOW MATTERS DEVELOP…ASSESSMENT AND WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE…OWNERSHIP AND FORESIGHT…TO ACTIVELY ASSERT VISION AND DEAL WITH PROBLEMS ENERGETICALLY… TAKE COMMAND OF CREATIVE ENERGIES AND FORGE AHEAD TO OVERCOME OBSTACLES…A SECURE POSITION TO GRASP A NEW WAND AND A NEW PROJECT…THE WORLD IN THE FORM OF THE GLOBE IS IN HIS HANDS…









TWO OF PENTACLES…THE UPS AND DOWNS OF FORTUNE…TO SEEK TO MAKE THE MOST OF CIRCUMSTANCES…WALKING A TIGHTROPE YET WHISTLING TO HIMSELF…TO GO WITH THE FLOW…TO JUGGLE ONES ASSETS EVEN IN TIMES OF SCARCITY AS A DANCER















TWO OF CUPS…LOVE…BONDING AND RELATIONSHIPS… PARTNERSHIPS…JOINT AGREEMENTS… HARMONY OF MALE AND FEMALE ENERGIES IN THE BROADEST SENSE…THE MALE REACHES TOWARD THE FEMALE IN A QUEST OF INNER ATTRACTION…















TWO OF SWORDS…TO BE BETWEEN A ‘ROCK’ AND A ‘HARD PLACE’…TO BALANCE EVEN AS OPPOSITIONAL FORCES ARE PRESSURING…IT IS BETTER TO ENDURE THAN ACT ‘BLINDLY’…TROUBLE LOOMS IN THE FORCES OF DIFFERENCES…STALEMATE…IMPASSE… PRECARIOUS BALANCE…KEEPING THE LID ON EMOTIONS…ENERGY BEYOND THE ONSLAUGHT OF THE DISRUPTION OF THE INTELLECT…INTUITION IS NECESSARY TO OVERCOME THE LIMITS OF LOGIC AND THE CHOICES ARE DIFFICULT…









………………………………………THREES…TO ENCOUNTER TRIANGULATION AS GROUP OR COALITIONS…CLARITY OF INTENT IS ESSENTIAL AS THE OTHERS MAY ALIGN TO LIMIT AND DELAY…THREE AS GENITALIA INTO THE UNITING OF SPERM AND EGG









THREE OF WANDS… PRODUCTIVITY… DISTRIBUTION…ONE’S SHIP HAS COME IN…THE ESTABLISHMENT OF PRIMEVAL ENERGIES…SUN IN ARIES…BIRTH OF AN ENTERPRISE…









THREE OF CUPS… HEALING AND CELEBRATION…CARING AND SHARING…TEMPERED AS AN AWARENESS OF ‘OVERINDULGENCE’…ABUNDANCE FULFILLED IN THE WILL TO LOVE…REAPING ONE’S HARVEST…MUTUAL SUPPORT IN PROSPERITY, CELEBRATION, FRIENDSHIP…









THREE OF SWORDS…DEEP HURT…IT RAINS ON YOUR PARADE…PIERCED HEART TIME OF WOUNDEDNESS…SORROW…SATURN IN LIBRA…THE GREAT SWORD OF THE MAGICIANCUTTING THE JUNCTION OF THE TWO SORT SWORDS…CRYSTALLIZATION AND STORM…THIS IS THE DARKNESS OF THE GREAT SEA…TEARS…ABSENCE…









THREE OF PENTACLES…ACHIEVING PROSPERITY…THE MASTER BUILDER AT THE HEIGHT OF HIS POWERS…HIS TALENTS…ARTISTIC EXCELLENCE…APPLY THE HIGHEST SKILLS AVAILABLE TO THE TASK AT HAND…THE MATERIAL ESTABLISHMENT OF THE IDEA OF THE UNIVERSE…









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FOURS…FRUITION…SPACE TO GROW…STABILITY… MANIFESTATION OF AN IDEA…TANGIBLE RESULTS…









FOUR OF WANDS… SOLIDARITY… PEACE… PROSPERITY… ABUNDANCE…TRIUMPH… A SOCIAL EVENT…VENUS IN ARIES AS THE WILL OF THE 2 HAS BEEN TRANSMUTED THROUGH THE 3 INTO THE ORDER AND SOLIDITY OF THE SYSTEM OF LAW AND GOVERNMENT… REST AND REWARD TIME…COMPLETION…









FOUR OF CUPS… CONTEMPLATION… THOUGHT PROCESSES…LOOK AROUND …DO NOT LET OPPORTUNITY PASS YOU BY…A PERIOD OF INACTION…









FOUR OF SWORDS…A TIME OF PREPARATION…ATIME OF RETREAT OR CONVALESCENCE… TO PULL BACK ON THE REINS…TO GET ONESELF PSYCHED UP FOR SOMETHING









FOUR OF PENTACLES…POSSESSION AND OWNERSHIP…A FEAR OF LOSING SOMETHING BECAUSE IT MAY BE ALL THAT HE HAS…A POSSIBILITY THAT A GIFT OR AN INHERITANCE MAY ARRIVE SHORTLY…









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FIVES…IN THE MIDDLE OF CHANGE, CHALLENGE, OR FLUCTUATIONS…DIFFERENCES LIKE MATERIAL PROSPERITY OR SPIRITUAL POVERTY…IMBALANCES OR BEING MISUNDERSTOOD…









FIVE OF WANDS…STIFF COMPETITION, FAIR AND OTHERWISE…SPREADING YOURSELF TOO THIN…WORKING WITHOUT A PLAN…SPINNING ONE’S WHEELS FOR THE MORE ONE TRIES TO ACCOMPLISH/THE LESS THAT IS ACHIEVED…









FIVE OF CUPS…THE LOSS OF SOMETHING THAT CAN NOT BE RECOVERED…DEEP SORROW…DESPAIR… AGONY OVER A GREAT LOSS…INABILITY TO SEE THE OPPORTUNITY OF THE TWO FILLED CUPS WHEN THE THREE ARE SPILLED AND EMPTY…









FIVE OF SWORDS…SELF DEFENSE…WHO IS THE CONQUERED AND THE CONQUEROR…TEMPERING VICTORY…BEING HUMBLE…SENSE THE INSTABILITY IN THE RELATIONS OF LOSS AND ‘RESULT’…















FIVE OF PENTACLES…THE DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL CARD…ONE FEELS AS IF ONE HAS BEEN LEFT OUT IN THE COLD…A BREAKDOWN OF BELIEF SYSTEMS…FEELING DESTITUTE, LONELY, ABANDONED IN THE BAD LUCK OR CONSEQUENCES OF ‘POOR’ CHOICES…









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SIXES…AN ABILITY TO TRANSCEND DIFFICULTIES… ADJUSTMENTS…SIXES ARE BALANCE AND EQUILIBRIUM… ADJUSTMENTS IN THOUGHTS, ATTITUDES OR CONDITIONS…









SIX OF WANDS…ENERGY, AND ITS’ RECEPTION AND REFLECTION BY THE FEMININE… VICTORY IN A DISPLAY OF 3 WANDS OF 3 ADEPTS IN ARRANGED ORDER…JOYFUL CONCLUSION OF THE PARADE…THE WARRING AND PEACEFUL OPPOSITES ARE BALANCED…THE RIGHT STUFF…RECOGNITION FOR ONE’S WORK…









SIX OF CUPS…PLEASURE, EMOTIONAL NOSTALGIA, IN YOUR PAST IS YOUR FUTURE…YOU CAN’T GO HOME AGAIN…TO LIVE WITH THE PAST BUT NOT IN THE PAST…









SIX OF SWORDS…A JOURNEY OVER WATER…A FLIGHT TO SAFETY…PASSAGE FROM DIFFICULTY…INTELLIGENCE THAT HAS REALIZED ITS GOAL…SWIMMING WITH THE CURRENT…



SIX OF PENTACLES…GENEROSITY, GETTING WHAT YOU DESERVE, TO REAP WHAT ONE HAS SEWED…SOUND INVESTING…SHARING ONE’S WEALTH OF FINANCES OR SPIRITUALITY…









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SEVENS…SOLITUDE…MYSTICISM… THE DEVELOPMENT OF THE SOUL… MAGIC…DIVINE JUSTICE…INTUITION… THE COMPLETION OF A PHASE OR A CYCLE…A TURNING POINT…WISDOM…CHOICE…FATE…









SEVEN OF WANDS…VALOR AS WELL AS COURAGE OR FEAR…OBSTACLES AND DIFFICULTIES YET COURAGE TO MEET THEM…AN EDGE OF DISEQUILIBRIUM… HOLDING FIRM AGAINST OPPOSITION…STRENGTH IN ADVERSITY…PERSEVERANCE…TO CONTROL THE HIGH GROUND…









SEVEN OF CUPS…HOPES, DREAMS AND DESIRES…EXTERNAL SPLENDOR AND INTERNAL CORRUPTION…LACK OF FOCUS…A SENSE OF CONFUSION… BLURS AND SCATTERED ENERGIES…YOU CAN’T HAVE EVERYTHING…









SEVEN OF SWORDS…FUTILITY…THE MIND IS CONFUSED AND UNDECIDED…VAIN STRIVING AGAINST TOO POWERFUL OF AN OPPOSITION…UNTRUST- WORTHINESS… FASCINATION WITH DISPLAY …UNRELIABILITY…TO ESCAPE UNDETECTED…A THEFT OF THE SWORDS OF THE ARMY AND DEPARTING UNNOTICED…A SENSE OF BETRAYAL…KEEPING KNOWLEDGE OR GOODS FROM A PRIOR EXPERIENCE…









SEVEN OF PENTACLES…SLOW AND STEADY GROWTH…TAKING STOCK OF ONE’S INVESTMENTS…PERSEVERANCE…TO APPLY CONSISTENT EFFORT AND AWAIT THE TIME OF RIPENING…









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EIGHTS…A POSITIVE CHANGE OF MIND…JUSTICE, HEALTH AND THE MANIFESTATION OF TWO TIMES FOUR…THE 8 OF MANIFESTATION…THE HORIZONTAL LEMNISCATE OR INFINITY SYMBOL…DEATH OF AN OLD TO MAKE WAY FOR THE NEW…HARMONIZING OPPOSING FORCES…









EIGHT OF WANDS…SWIFTNESS AND THE ENERGY OF HIGH VELOCITY…LIGHT WANDS TURNED INTO ELECTRICAL RAYS…SPEECH…APPROACH TO GOAL…TO CLARIFY AND FOCUS OUT OF THE BARRAGE OF ARROWS AIMING AT A SINGLE TARGET…RUSHES OF CREATIVE INSPIRATION…TRAVEL BY AIR…FRESH OPPORTUNITY BEYOND THE PERIOD OF STAGNATION…









EIGHT OF CUPS…A CHANGE OF HEART…INDOLENCE…RETREATING…A DESIRE FOR CHANGE IN CONSOLIDATING THE FULLNESS OF THE CUPS AND MOVING TOWARD THE NEW…TIMING SENSES OF RECEIVING ASSISTANCE FROM A BLOND WOMAN…TO WALK TOWARD UNCERTAINTY AS SEEN IN THE MOTION TOWARD THE BARREN MOUNTAINS…









EIGHT OF SWORDS…RESTRICTION… OUTSIDE OBSTRUCTION AND OBSTACLES TO ONE’S CONCENTRATION…A LACK OF PERSISTENCE IN INTELLECTUAL MATTERS AND ACCIDENTAL INTERFERENCE…NO CHOICE IN BEING ON UNSURE GROUND…INHIBITED ENERGY…INABILITY TO MOVE…INDECISION…ANALYSIS/PARALYSIS…FEELING TRAPPED OR BEING CAPTURED…









EIGHT OF PENTACLES…DILIGENCE AND PRUDENCE IN APPRENTICESHIPLEARNING ONE’S TRADE…SKILL/TALENT DEVELOPMENT…INTELLIGENCE APPLIED TO MATERIAL MATTERS…INDUSTRIOUSNESS…THE POSSESSION OF THE FRUITS OF THE EARTH BRINGS ITS OWN RESPONSIBILITY…ABSORPTION AND PLEASURE IN MENTORING/THE WORK ITSELF…CHANGE IN OPPORTUNITY TO ENHANCE AND STREAMLINE TALENTS…









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NINES…PREPARATION AND SUMMING UP BEFORE THE COMPLETION OF A CYCLE…COMPASSION AND CREATIVE ENERGY…BRINGING MATTERS TO A CLOSE…MYSTICISM…DREAMS…ANOTHER PLATEAU AWAITS…THE MULTIPLICATION OF THE ORIGINAL WORD, THE MINGLING OF GOOD LUCK AND GOOD MANAGEMENT… INCREASE IN GOOD FORTUNE AS ONE LETS GO OF THE PAST TO MAKE WAY FOR THE FUTURE…YANG ENERGY ASSOCIATED WITH COMPLETIONS AND ENDINGS…









NINE OF WANDS…STRENGTH IN RESERVE… TO STAND ONE’S GROUND…A STRONG CONSTITUTION…PERSEVERANCE AND INNER STRENGTH…IT AIN’T OVER TILL IT’S OVER…TO FIGHT FOR PRESENCE …TO BE PREPARED KNOWING WARINESS…TO DEVELOP AND MAINTAIN A HEALTHY IMMUNE SYSTEM…TO FIGHT FOR REPUTATION…ABILITY TO RESIST AND ATTACK… CONSCIOUSNESS OF A SUMO WRESTLER…THE FULL DEVELOPMENT OF THE ARROW FORCE HAVING THE MOON FOR THE POINT OF THE MASTER ARROW…CHANGE IS STABILITY AS THE DA DIRECTION OF INERTIA…THE FOUNDATION OF THE SUN…THE SWIFTNESS AND HEAT OF FIRE AS THE EIGHT WANDS OF DIANA IN THE RISING OF THE MOON MOVE THROUGH THE SUN FIRE OF THE MASTER ARROW…THE ASSERTION OF THE SELF LETTING GO OF THE EXTRANEOUS AND THE EXCESSES…









NINE OF CUPS…NINE CUPS PERFECTLY ARRANGED WITH WATER OVERFLOWING…HAPPINESS ALTHOUGH MAYBE TEMPORARY…WISH AND DESIRE FULFILLED…A DREAM COME TRUE… CONTENTMENT… ENJOYMENT ‘AVEC PLAISIR’…THE MOST BENEFICENT ASPECT OF WATER…A TIME TO ENJOY THE COMPLETION OF A PROCESS YET TEMPER ENERGIES KNOWING THE DANGERS OF VANITY/CONCEIT/SELF INDULGENCE…









NINE OF SWORDS…DESPAIR…THE NIGHTMARE OF DEMORALIZATION…FEELING USELESS OR OVERWHELMED…LACK OF CONFIDENCE…MENTAL AGONY…NOBODY LOVES ME…I AM NO GOOD…SORROW… UNFOUNDED FEARS…FEMALE HEALTH PROBLEMS… OPPRESSION…INTELLECT IS REPLACED BY HEARTLESS PASSION…A MIND DOMINATED BY INSATIABLE DESIRES…THE JAGGED SWORDS DROPPING BLOOD AND TEARS…GUILT/TORMENT/PAIN/UNFOUNDED WORRIES…SPITE…SLANDER…CRYING SPELLS…









NINE OF PENTACLES…SELF-RELIANCE…SELF SUFFICIENT…ATTAINMENT…WELL DESERVED SUCCESS…TO REAP THE BENEFIT OF THE WISE USE OF ONE’S TALENTS AND INVESTMENTS…SELF WORTH AND THE CAPACITY TO BE ALONE…SOLITUDE AS A POTENCY OF SPIRITUAL MATURATION…









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TENS…THE FINISH OR END OF A CYCLE… REGENERATION OR TRANSFORMATION REBIRTHING… THE SUMMATION…THE FIRST SHALL BE LAST AND THE LAST SHALL BE FIRST…PLUTO AS THE TENTH PLANET RULES SCORPIO AND THE EIGHT HOUSE AS THE PLANET OF DEATH, BIRTH AND TRANSFORMATION, THE CYCLIC PROCESS OF GROWTH AND DECAY FOLLOWED BY NEW GROWTH…









TEN OF WANDS…THE WEIGHT OF AMBITION…THE BURDENS OF SUCCESS…FORCE DETACHED FROM SPIRITUAL SOURCE…OVERLOADS…TAKING ON TOO MUCH…FIRE IN ITS MOST DESTRUCTIVE ASPECT… SELFISHNESS AND REPRESSION…LONELINESS AT THE TOP…THE SLOW SMOLDERING OF AN EXHAUSTED FORCE…















TEN OF CUPS…JOY…SATIETY BECOMES THE OVERFLOW THAT ATTACKS EVERY SUPPOSED PERFECTION…GENEROSITY AT ITS PEAK…MATTERS ARRANGED AND SETTLED AS WISHED…LIMITS BECOME EXHAUSTION IF NOT TEMPERED…RAPPORT… FULFILLMENT…









TEN OF SWORDS…STABBED IN THE BACK/AN END OF A CYCLE/RUIN/FAILURE/DEFEAT/DEATH OF AN ILLUSION…DEVASTATION/LOSS/BANKRUPTCY/… THE GRAIN OF WHEAT MUST FALL INTO THE GROUND AND DIE IN ORDER TO GROW…DISRUPTION…HITTING BOTTOM…REASON RUN MAD AND A RIOT OF SOULLESS MECHANISM…A FLAME WITH EXPLOSIVE DESTRUCTION… CONFRONTING MORTALITY…THE HEART IS FRAGMENTED OR BROKEN AS THE MIND LETS GO OF ALL CONTROL AND IS TORMENTED IN MADNESS









TEN OF PENTACLES…WEALTH… FAMILY SUPPORT…THE DISCS HAVE NOW BECOME COINS ON THE TREE OF LIFE…AN IMAGE OF THE FUTILITY OF MATERIAL GAIN…A DEVOTION TO CREATIVITY IS ESSENTIAL TO MOVE BEYOND MERE MATERIALISM…FIRM FOUNDATIONS FOR FAMILY LIFE…





















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4 ACES [ALL TRUMPS]









MAGUS FOOL









4 THREES [ALL CUPS] 4 TWOS[ALL



QUEENS EMPRESS WANDS]



KNIGHTS















CHARIOT LOVERS PRIESTESS STAR HIEROPHANT







4 FIVES LUST 4 FOURS







ADJUSTMENT HERMIT









4 SIXES[ALL SWORDS]



PRINCES









DEVIL DEATH









HANGED FORTUNE



MAN









4 EIGHTS TOWER 4 SEVENS









ART









SUN EMPEROR







4 NINES









UNIVERSE



AEON MOON









4 TENS



PRINCESSES[ALL PENTACLES]



























THE TREE OF LIFE WITH TAROT ATTRIBUTES / KABBALAH …………………………………………………………………………….













ARCHETYPE JOURNEY









WHEEL OF FORTUNE



THE LOVERS









TEMPERANCE









JUDGEMENT















THE CHARIOT









THE HANGED MAN









HEROIC THE STAR









HERMIT



THE SUN STRENGTH



HIEROPHANT

THE MAGICIAN







MASCULINE THE EMPEROR FEMININE







SELF HIGH EMPRESS



THE FOOL PRIESTESS



THE WORLD









JUSTICE









THE MOON









ADVERSITY









THE DEVIL









THE TOWER



DEATH



DEATH/REBIRTH

















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